Daughter, yes, Yoda is!
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Seeking Blow Jobs
According to my stats, people are wanting to search for Blow Jobs (work safe) again. Original post
Today's Lesson
How to Catch a Fly (no chopsticks required (amz))
A fly will tend to steer away from something approaching it in the exact opposite direction. In other words, it runs instead of dogging. So the best way to catch a fly is not to grab for it since it will just fly away from your hand. Instead uses these steps:
[Note: No actual flies were harmed in the making of this post.]
Everyone should read about Boris!
A fly will tend to steer away from something approaching it in the exact opposite direction. In other words, it runs instead of dogging. So the best way to catch a fly is not to grab for it since it will just fly away from your hand. Instead uses these steps:
- reach over and beyond the fly.
- Next form your hand like a claw with fingers toward the floor and fingertips curled slightly toward your body.
- Your arm at this point will probably be fully extended and the fly between your body and hand. Rapidly draw your claw toward your body.
- The fly will instictively steer the opposite direction of the hand and fly toward you. Seeing the obsticle of the body it goes for height but the arm is there to block it. By the time it decides to go to the side you are closing your hand around it.
- Final step, dispose of the fly. This can be releasing it to the outside (or inside if you want to catch it again) or putting it out of your misery. You can throw a fly to the floor with enough force to render it unconscious. Warning! It will revive to annoy you with much ferocity.
[Note: No actual flies were harmed in the making of this post.]
Everyone should read about Boris!
In Coolness
Boing Boing points out this cool and eerie silent crash test video. I think the coolest thing is that NASA tunred a 747 (I think that's a 747) into a remote controlled airplane! I want one!
Terror fears don't trump Constitution
What great news! Protesters can't be forced through metal detectors
Fears of a terrorist attack are not sufficient reason for authorities to search people at a protest, a federal appeals court has ruled, saying September 11, 2001, "cannot be the day liberty perished."
"We cannot simply suspend or restrict civil liberties until the War of Terror is over, because the War on Terror is unlikely ever to be truly over," Judge Gerald Tjoflat wrote for the three-member court. "September 11, 2001, already a day of immeasurable tragedy, cannot be the day liberty perished in this country."
there are steps the government can take to protect people from terrorism, "that doesn't mean we just dispense with the Bill of Rights as a consequence of 9/11."
Finally some semblance of the America I grew up in!
A New Day!
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This Morning
I went to bed depressed last night. I thought I was going to get some programming done yesterday and had I not opened a single piece of mail I probably would have put in a few hours.
To bring myself up this morning I tried a little self-indulgence then immediately felt guilty over it. Reward before effort is like giving the dog a treat then saying "sit." I still want to lean toward doing selfish things today.
I have about 3 days of work to get done today and today is shorter than normal since I agreed to take Tommy to D&D this evening.
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This Morning
I went to bed depressed last night. I thought I was going to get some programming done yesterday and had I not opened a single piece of mail I probably would have put in a few hours.
To bring myself up this morning I tried a little self-indulgence then immediately felt guilty over it. Reward before effort is like giving the dog a treat then saying "sit." I still want to lean toward doing selfish things today.
I have about 3 days of work to get done today and today is shorter than normal since I agreed to take Tommy to D&D this evening.
Saturday, October 16, 2004
financial angst
political angst
spirital angst
sexual angst
social angst
angst
angsT
angST
anGST
aNGST
ANGST!
4 consonants in a row. cool!
political angst
spirital angst
sexual angst
social angst
angst
angsT
angST
anGST
aNGST
ANGST!
4 consonants in a row. cool!
Political
This has merit purely on the fact that they went with Bollywood another splash (I hereby declare splash to be a Spoof Flash movie). If it were any longer than it is I would not have watched the whole thing.
Patriotic
As the election nears, I think it is important to be reminded of our history, the reasons our country was formed, what freedom means and symbolism such as the American Flag.
I Am The Flag by Ruth Apperson Rous is exceptionally written.
I Am The Flag by Ruth Apperson Rous is exceptionally written.
A New Day!
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I had the pleasure of sleeping in today (got up at 8am). It was incredible! Thank you wife!
Today my mind wants me to do 12 different things. I'm focusing on cleaning for the moment.
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I had the pleasure of sleeping in today (got up at 8am). It was incredible! Thank you wife!
Today my mind wants me to do 12 different things. I'm focusing on cleaning for the moment.
Search Engine Wars
The Google Destop has caused quite a stir. The Jason Calacanis Weblog is giving software away to show that there are better solutions.
Free *full-version* version of X1 software… much better than Google Desktop search. Value=$74.95!!!
Friday, October 15, 2004
Political
President Horror Show Get ready to laught yourself to tears! Subtitles at the top of the page. Requires sound. Work safe.
From the mouths of babes
Amy upon noticing the Playstation joysticks in my office points and says, "The controllers! Noah's controller!" Then notes "da cat toy" and requests that it be put "up der" with the cat on the monitor. What fun conversation!
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This Morning
Friday! Should be a good day. Focus at work. Soccer in the evening. And plans to get many things done this weekend.
We are skipping Camp Buck Tom (see also) this weekend and I feel only a little badly about it. I am too stressed to enjoy it, the boys have been the last three times, and it is going to be fridge this weekend!
Time to work.
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This Morning
Friday! Should be a good day. Focus at work. Soccer in the evening. And plans to get many things done this weekend.
We are skipping Camp Buck Tom (see also) this weekend and I feel only a little badly about it. I am too stressed to enjoy it, the boys have been the last three times, and it is going to be fridge this weekend!
Time to work.
Nite
That's it! When you type zzzzss instead of code its time for sleep. The rain is lulling me away.
Tips Posted
I just made my first tips posts at Spy Journal Tech Tips and Spy Journal Blog Tips. Be sure to check them out!
Thursday, October 14, 2004
From the mouths of babes
Upon waking from nap (far too soon), "Where are you Daddy?! Where are you?!"
Ball dropping
Whew! I didn't realize how far I got behind on TN Lottery Results, it's blog, and it's sister blog this week! My apologies to the number seekers. I suppose I was a little disappointed over someone else claiming my $215 million.
Check out these numbers:
LOTTO 5 10/13/2004 05-15-19-33-38
LOTTO 5 10/8/2004 05-10-15-26-28
They seemed so similar I had to do a triple take.
Now, can anyone suggest why the above sites get a high ranking at msn search and yahoo search but fail to show up at all in google?
Check out these numbers:
LOTTO 5 10/13/2004 05-15-19-33-38
LOTTO 5 10/8/2004 05-10-15-26-28
They seemed so similar I had to do a triple take.
Now, can anyone suggest why the above sites get a high ranking at msn search and yahoo search but fail to show up at all in google?
Where was the truth?
Concerned that the debates twisted the truth?
CBS Fact Check
FactCheck.org with such great information as:
Hopefully FactCheck.org will have the 3rd debate posted soon.
CBS Fact Check
FactCheck.org with such great information as:
Bush got a laugh when he scoffed at Kerry's contention that he had received $84 from "a timber company." Said Bush, "I own a timber company? That's news to me."
In fact, according to his 2003 financial disclosure form, Bush does own part interest in "LSTF, LLC", a limited-liability company organized "for the purpose of the production of trees for commercial sales." (See "supporting documents" at right.)
In fact, according to his 2003 financial disclosure form, Bush does own part interest in "LSTF, LLC", a limited-liability company organized "for the purpose of the production of trees for commercial sales." (See "supporting documents" at right.)
Hopefully FactCheck.org will have the 3rd debate posted soon.
Health Alert
Staring at women's breasts is good for men's health
Here's the newspaper clipping incase the image goes away:
An eyeful a day keeps the doctor away
by JONATHAN HAYTER
by JONATHAN HAYTER
STARING at women's breasts is good for men's health and makes them live longer, a new survey reveals.
Researchers have discovered that a 10-minute ogle at women's breasts is as healthy as half-an-hour in the gym.
A five-year study of 200 men found tha those who enjoyed a longing look at busty beauties has lower blood pressure, less heart disease and slower pulse rates compared to those who did not get their daily eyeful.
Dr Karen Weatherby, who carried out the German study, wrote in the New England Journal of Medicine: "Just 10 minutes of staring at the charms of a well endowed female is roughly equivalent to a 30-minute aerobics workout.
"Sexual excitement gets the heart pumping and improves blood circulation.
"There is no question that gazing at breasts makes men healthier.
"Our study indicates that engaging in this activity a few minutes daily cuts the risk of a stroke and heart attack in half.
"We believe that by doing so consistently, the average man can extend his life four to five years."
There you have ladies! Help your man live longer and flash him periodically during the day. Shoot. Help a total stranger! Pick some unhealthy looking sot and pull that shirt over your head! Spread the word and soon we could have women all over the place helping to make sure your men stay healthy!
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Political
I watched the debates. What more is there to say than that's an hour and a half of my life I can't get back and I should have been programming or standing on my head or something other than watching Bush declare his failed "No child left behind" program a success and Kerry try to back pedal from many missed Senate meetings/votes.
I think Kerry stood more presidential. I think Bush still comes across comical and shifty.
I think Kerry stood more presidential. I think Bush still comes across comical and shifty.
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Monday, October 11, 2004
Progress!
Time to pause my working day. Shall resume tonight. I wish I could work as fast as I think.
Progress!
I've been working on code all day but slipping in some of the other necessities for sanity. Since I won't be able to drive the soccer team tonight, the punctured tire had to be fixed. I ahve been unable to locate my rasp or glue for the past week and a half and finally remembered to buy one.
The tire is fixed! (at least the plug is in...we are pressure testing now).
The dryer is further dismantled.
The tire is fixed! (at least the plug is in...we are pressure testing now).
The dryer is further dismantled.
So blurry!
My ability to focus on my work is being severely hampered (laundry pun) by my desire to work on the dryer!
I have decided to spend $25 more on the repair and replace all wheels and belts. Between the new wheels, belts and motor, this dryer should effective perform like a refurb and last several more years.
I need a full afternoon to complete the work plus an hour to go buy parts.
I have decided to spend $25 more on the repair and replace all wheels and belts. Between the new wheels, belts and motor, this dryer should effective perform like a refurb and last several more years.
I need a full afternoon to complete the work plus an hour to go buy parts.
From the Mouths of Babes
"OOoh Dear! Oooh dear! I 'pilled on da paper!" in response to spilling her (Amy) juice on a butcher paper covered table.
Superman has died
In the last week Reeve had developed a serious systemic infection from a pressure wound, a common complication for people living with paralysis. ... then fell into a coma and died Sunday at a hospital surrounded by his family, his publicist said. He was 52.
I was really hoping he'd beat this. I know. Unrealistic. The progress he'd made was incredible. He really was Superman (amz).
A New Day!
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This Morning
I finally gave up on the dryer about midnight. Woke again at 4am but could motivate myself out of bed beyond cleaning up the dog's stank. Realized the cat was awol (escaped while I was coming to and fro with the dryer parts) so I spent a few minutes calling her back into the house. The scared thing spent 4 hours on the outside!
I don't want to go to work today. I want to finish the dryer. I'm very close. All-in-all I've learned a whole bunch about dryers and things you can do to maintenance them and extend their lives; however, if I took my standard hourly rate and applied it to this learning lesson I probably could have just had one delivered and installed and foregone the lesson. They would have even hauled off the old one. On the plus side, I can repair the other one with relative easy based on what I have learned and Cathy can have two dryers.
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This Morning
I finally gave up on the dryer about midnight. Woke again at 4am but could motivate myself out of bed beyond cleaning up the dog's stank. Realized the cat was awol (escaped while I was coming to and fro with the dryer parts) so I spent a few minutes calling her back into the house. The scared thing spent 4 hours on the outside!
I don't want to go to work today. I want to finish the dryer. I'm very close. All-in-all I've learned a whole bunch about dryers and things you can do to maintenance them and extend their lives; however, if I took my standard hourly rate and applied it to this learning lesson I probably could have just had one delivered and installed and foregone the lesson. They would have even hauled off the old one. On the plus side, I can repair the other one with relative easy based on what I have learned and Cathy can have two dryers.
Sunday, October 10, 2004
Other finds
Here;s a "Force Feeback Programming Primer - for PC Gaming Peripherals Supporting I-Force 2.0 and Direct-X 5.0"
Ah! I found the stuff the mice liked!
Whew! 4:30 arrived and the dryer isn't fixed but the office is cleaner! Blogger still isn't accepting posts.
Ah! I found the stuff the mice liked!
Whew! 4:30 arrived and the dryer isn't fixed but the office is cleaner! Blogger still isn't accepting posts.
Cleaning Freenzy!
To get the washer back in the house I've been forced to clean. I have madly been throwing out magazines and mail most dating back to 1998 although I have found some from 1991 and at least one reference from 1984. An archealogist would have a hayday with this pile of rubbish.
I have gotten good at this and even thrown out college course work and my Cobol manual!
It is refreahing to put some more of my past behind me. It helps to move forward when you aren't anchored by the past.
I have gotten good at this and even thrown out college course work and my Cobol manual!
It is refreahing to put some more of my past behind me. It helps to move forward when you aren't anchored by the past.
A New Day!
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This Morning
I have a week's worth of work I'd like to do today. My desires are home repair (mine and a friends) and lawn work as well as personal programming and business programming. I recognize this as an evil way to start the day so I am going to focus. My only interest right now is the dryer. If it takes an hour I can do more. If it takes all day so be it!
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This Morning
I have a week's worth of work I'd like to do today. My desires are home repair (mine and a friends) and lawn work as well as personal programming and business programming. I recognize this as an evil way to start the day so I am going to focus. My only interest right now is the dryer. If it takes an hour I can do more. If it takes all day so be it!
Saturday, October 09, 2004
Show and Sell
What a day so far! The morning was spent trying to get out for the afternoon. The girl scouts had their first meeting at their new location and to get Amy and Molly to the inlaws I followed Cathy to the location then did some Walmart shopping then dropped Amy and Molly off then Noah and I rushed home to sell popcorn to raise money for the boy scouts.
Today has been like trying to read a book inside a tornado and there is more fun to be had!
Today has been like trying to read a book inside a tornado and there is more fun to be had!
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This Morning
Crashed hard last night like a plane shot from the sky. Why say some so horrible?! Because I fell asleep while watching The History Channel's "Conspiracy?: TWA Flight 800" Much needed very deep sleep!
I actually watched the last 30 minutes of the presidential debate. I would have enjoyed seeing the whole thing. These two certainly presented themselves more...presidentially...than their running mates. My favorite part was when Bush made reference to No Child Left Behind and Kerry rebutes that "millions have been left behind." No Child Left Behind has done nothing!
It giles me that they can stand up there and spout spin and unless you are educated on the issues you have no way to know whether or not they are lying. I was waiting with bated breath for Kerry to reference land in the Great Smoky Mountians National Park that was returned to the Cherokee Indians for schools (which will one day become casios). The reference never came (I can't find a link..anyone have one?).
Time for a hectic day. We have a neighborhood yardsale going on today (not participating). I wonder how its doing?
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This Morning
Crashed hard last night like a plane shot from the sky. Why say some so horrible?! Because I fell asleep while watching The History Channel's "Conspiracy?: TWA Flight 800" Much needed very deep sleep!
I actually watched the last 30 minutes of the presidential debate. I would have enjoyed seeing the whole thing. These two certainly presented themselves more...presidentially...than their running mates. My favorite part was when Bush made reference to No Child Left Behind and Kerry rebutes that "millions have been left behind." No Child Left Behind has done nothing!
It giles me that they can stand up there and spout spin and unless you are educated on the issues you have no way to know whether or not they are lying. I was waiting with bated breath for Kerry to reference land in the Great Smoky Mountians National Park that was returned to the Cherokee Indians for schools (which will one day become casios). The reference never came (I can't find a link..anyone have one?).
Time for a hectic day. We have a neighborhood yardsale going on today (not participating). I wonder how its doing?
Friday, October 08, 2004
Wired in a Calm Way
The juggling went ok. I should have had my microphone. That was a mistake not bringing it. I'm on edge about all the traffic rules now. The ticket incident hasn't made me a better driver but I'm cop phobic now. Paranoid in a delusion sense that they are "out to get me."
I'm calm on the outside and jittery on the inside. Must take a couple of minutes of meditation.
I'm calm on the outside and jittery on the inside. Must take a couple of minutes of meditation.
Of Grasshoppers
Student: I have too much to do today!
Master: You have exactly one day's worth of doing to do today.
Master: You have exactly one day's worth of doing to do today.
Cats are funny
This cat has been repeating this same 1 minute video clip (0:54 2.3MB) for the past hour. Apparently her sister is on the other side of the glass just watching with amusement.
Wigged
I'm totally tripped out. To the point of dysfunctionality. I'm having a hard time kicking this.
Today is my major deadline and I'm not sure that the s/w is there.
Today I have a juggling performance that I am totally unprepared for. I wanted new material and I'll be lucky to get by with the old, stagnant material.
Tonight I have 3 things plated that need to happen at once.
Tomorrow will be hellish.
On Sunday could I rest?!
Today is my major deadline and I'm not sure that the s/w is there.
Today I have a juggling performance that I am totally unprepared for. I wanted new material and I'll be lucky to get by with the old, stagnant material.
Tonight I have 3 things plated that need to happen at once.
Tomorrow will be hellish.
On Sunday could I rest?!
A New Day!
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This Morning
Stress and anxiety are off the charts! Yesterday I gave Tommy an over the top verbal lashing unnecessarily. He had done wrong but it should have been ignored.
Today is going to be hard. I'm overcommitted and its going to make me need to be committed.
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This Morning
Stress and anxiety are off the charts! Yesterday I gave Tommy an over the top verbal lashing unnecessarily. He had done wrong but it should have been ignored.
Today is going to be hard. I'm overcommitted and its going to make me need to be committed.
Thursday, October 07, 2004
Tech - Security for Middleware
The ColdFusion Developer's Journal has published the Top 10 Web Security Tips. Although this is written using ColdFusion references, the concepts are applicable to PHP, Asp, etc. For serious web application programmers this is a must read!
- Have an Error Handler
- Prevent Cross-Site Scripting
- Remove Dangerous Characters
- Prevent Fake Form Submits
- Stop Unauthorized Data Mining
- Validate Parameters and Prevent SQL Injection Attacks
- Use Server-Side Validation to Back Up Client-Side Validation
- Harden Your Logon Code
- Prevent Timeout Client/Session Backdoors
- Avoid Trojan Horse Uploads
Time Flies
I have been meaning to give a friend this list of links since July. Time flies and so many things drop through the cracks when you have 10,000 action items. So, I cannot lay hands on my friend's email address at the moment and I know she peaks in here so here are the links (better late than never):
http://www.korrnet.org/sb6bc/
http://www.parent-childservices.com/ has lots of checklist and fact sheets if you click "information" in the left column
http://www.allaboutmoms.com/speechchecklist.htm
http://www.nidcd.nih.gov/health/voice/speechandlanguage.asp
http://www.aap.org/parents.html
http://www.aacap.org/
My wife, the wealth of information, actually deserves the credit for referring those links.
Sorry for the delay.
http://www.korrnet.org/sb6bc/
http://www.parent-childservices.com/ has lots of checklist and fact sheets if you click "information" in the left column
http://www.allaboutmoms.com/speechchecklist.htm
http://www.nidcd.nih.gov/health/voice/speechandlanguage.asp
http://www.aap.org/parents.html
http://www.aacap.org/
My wife, the wealth of information, actually deserves the credit for referring those links.
Sorry for the delay.
Short
A Moment of Weakness
A moment of weakness
turns into an endless wait.
The endless weight becomes
a therapuetic philosophy session.
A moment of weakness
turns into a powerful strengthening.
--DM 3/99
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This Morning
That fluttering in my lower right chest cavity is already going to town today and I've had no caffiene. I failed to pull any of the anticipated overtime on this current project. Not only has that set us behind, it's like turning down free money! I'm so irritated with myself.
Today is my family's day at the Appalachian Homecoming. I will miss it because I did not work hard enough.
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This Morning
That fluttering in my lower right chest cavity is already going to town today and I've had no caffiene. I failed to pull any of the anticipated overtime on this current project. Not only has that set us behind, it's like turning down free money! I'm so irritated with myself.
Today is my family's day at the Appalachian Homecoming. I will miss it because I did not work hard enough.
The Homecoming is a celebration of the culture and heritage of Appalachian pioneer, mountain, and rural life. Mountain, folk, hymn, bluegrass, and traditional music will fill the air each day, from four stages, from cabin porches, from the log church, and from shady spots throughout the complex.
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
Of Grasshoppers
Student: I can't stop thinking about this bad thing I did.
Master: If you think about it enough will it become good?
Master: If you think about it enough will it become good?
A sign, er, card
I had the pleasure of a phone call from someone that found my business card on a board at TCBY. I had forgotten I'd placed it there! I was able to solve their problem in a few minutes on the phone gratis. Hopefully it will come back around.
Ether
Well now. I was having a very surreal moment at the office and emailed a post that went to the ether. How funny.
Quality Programming rule #1: If you are not given a spec, write your own. I broke this rule on my current project. Today I fixed the problem and it both sent me reeling as well as gave a definite end to the work. There is much to accomplish in a very brief time.
I am going to sit down and spend a few minutes each day writing, reviewing, and revising specs on the projects I am and want to do both personal and professional. It makes all the difference in the world!
Quality Programming rule #1: If you are not given a spec, write your own. I broke this rule on my current project. Today I fixed the problem and it both sent me reeling as well as gave a definite end to the work. There is much to accomplish in a very brief time.
I am going to sit down and spend a few minutes each day writing, reviewing, and revising specs on the projects I am and want to do both personal and professional. It makes all the difference in the world!
Amy Speaks
Amy says, "Save us from the evil poop Daddy!" Apparently the dog had an accident.
She followed it shortly with "bad hair day."
She followed it shortly with "bad hair day."
He got respect
Rodney Dangerfield has passed away. His spirit was overheard saying, "I met St Peter and asked, 'so are you letting me in?' and St Peter replied, 'Like Hell!' I never knew Heaven and the Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences were run by the same people. I get no respect!"
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Of Grasshoppers
Student: Once a good man always a good man?
Master: If you are feeling evil, perhaps it was always there.
Master: If you are feeling evil, perhaps it was always there.
Progress!
Actually pulled myself from bed for a 2am-5am programming stint! Got some cleaning in also as I started through a pile of old mail and had fun trashing ads mailed to me in 2002.
Time for a quick nap.
Time for a quick nap.
The Eagle Has Landed
"Gordon Cooper, who was the youngest and perhaps cockiest member of the original seven Mercury astronauts and set the space endurance record that helped clear the way for the first moon landing, has died. He was 77." [from CBSNEWS.com]
Continuance
And the boy stumbled upon where the crowd gathered in silence. They held the limp body of the Genie above their heads and with sadness and confusion declared, "We killed him and the nightmare did not fade." The boy fell to knees with anguish in his face and tears pouring from his eyes. "You fools! You killed the wrong beast for this is MY dream!" The boy momentarily collapsed until an unusual calm beset him. He slowly rose to his feet and there stood the Man. "It is my dream. And it is still alive!"
Monday, October 04, 2004
Of Grasshoppers
Student: How much fight can one man have in him?
Master: When you draw your last breath there is no more fight.
Master: When you draw your last breath there is no more fight.
Realization
After spending some relaxing moments admiring his work, the boy left the oasis with an optimism that the rest of the world could be brought around. He could repair his damage. As he stepped from the calm of the oasis and laid eyes on the rest of the world. It began to spin. His stomach knotted. His head grew light. The tasks ahead are formidable!
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This Morning
I went to bed last night with that fluttering in my lower right side just at the base of my rib cage. My heart seemed to race. I am anxious to see more progress on the house, the programming, financial stability and health insurance. I am torn between going into the office to work today and staying home to swing my shift and spend the morning fixing the dryer and the afternoon/evening programming. My gut says that won't work.
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This Morning
I went to bed last night with that fluttering in my lower right side just at the base of my rib cage. My heart seemed to race. I am anxious to see more progress on the house, the programming, financial stability and health insurance. I am torn between going into the office to work today and staying home to swing my shift and spend the morning fixing the dryer and the afternoon/evening programming. My gut says that won't work.
Sunday, October 03, 2004
Tim's New Look
Check out the new Spy Journal Personal. Tim has also lauched Spy Journal Excel Tips. Excellent work Tim!
Magic Space
I had planned on spending the day programming and practicing juggling. Missed on both accounts. BUT I did spend the day cleaning my garage. The intent was to clean the office so that I could move one busted dryer out and move another busted dryer in. How did we end up in the garage? Well, the trash from the office has to go somewhere! The driveway had become so messy that a person could hardly walk through it. Now it is clear and the retaining has shelves to hold all the gardening suppies. That clear driveway gave me the ability to pull a bunch of stuff from the garage and in the process threw many things away! I swept then looked at the space. Took some lumber that was doing nothing (oak I think) and used some cinder blocks for some make shift shelves. Put everything back in and was left with this great vaccuum in the middle! The kids bikes should fit in the garage now!
I wish I could take the rest of this week and just clean.
I wish I could take the rest of this week and just clean.
Hope
And the boy in his nakedness wandered out into the chaos. There he found a shimmering oasis but it was defiled with trash and remnants of the mobs which had come for the boy and instead took the Genie. His eyes began to tear with regret and a ray of sunshine beamed through the clouds. The boy acted upon a sudden inspiration and attacked the oasis with vigor and vim and began a cleaning frenzy. A breeze blows and the boy feels a burden begin to lift from his shoulders.
Saturday, October 02, 2004
Of Grasshoppers
Student: Why do bad things happen to good people?
Master: Bad things happen to all people. Good things also happen to all people.
Master: Bad things happen to all people. Good things also happen to all people.
What got me so down?
Sarah has a lock-in at the school. I went to pick her up at midnight and noted a police officer speed trapping (a practice I feel is a waste of tax payer's money--follow anyone long enough and they are going to do something wrong). I pick up Sarah and we are having great father/daughter chat, laughs and good quality time. Turn on the blue lights to ruin the mood. Oh. Sarah is in the front seat which is a no-no at her age and she says, "Should I move?" to which I said, "no" of course. Officer comes to the car and explains that I ran a 4-way stop. It's after midnight and the stop sign he is referring to is on a two lane road. No other cars around. He says I slowed but did not stop which I may have did a rolling stop but I put no one in harms way because there were no cars on the road! I am a victom of some young punk cop trying to fill a quota. I wouldn't be so upset about it if I didn't feel completely victomized.
Here's the rub. It's only a $15 ticket. BUT there are $83.50 pre-court charges so the total comes to $98.50. That's the hundred dollars I needed to fix the dryer. I don't exactly have money to be pissing away on some cop trying to make big numbers. It gets worse. TN has a point system. If you lose 12 points off your license then your license can be revoked. This fool stop sign is worth 4 points! If I am going to lose a third of the points off my license I want to be racing to some meeting that I'm late to and blatantly run some red light at a major intersection!
I am a good driver. I'm alert and have great reflexes. I drive a little fast but mostly obey all other laws (Sarah in the front seat is where I fudge). I pull over for emergency vehicles while watching others just stop in the road. I see moronic behavior go up punished on the road while I am reamed for a traffic violation at a time of night when all the rules should change anyway.
I was in such a good mood. Sarah and I were having such good talk. Cathy and I were planning on lounging in bed and sharing laughs. This moron that didn't have the decency to let me off with a warning (which is what post-midnight at that intersection should have been) had nothing but negative effects on me. He did not make me a better or more cautious driver as I spent most of my day lead footing it in anger. I drove distracted as I kept fretting over and over the situation. My productivity today was killed because I had no energy and lost all cares and couldn't get my mind off of how to handle this. I decided no longer to freely volunteer any time to Knoxville. That means no more free juggling shows no matter how good the cause. There was no positive to come from this but to pad the KPDs budget.
So, what do I do? On Monday do I requistion the squard car's video tape to see how badly I did or did not run the sign? Or does that preserve evidence that otherwise would be discarded? Do I just pay the fine and watch my insurance rates go through the roof? Do I go to court and if I do what do I plead? Guilty? Not Guilty? No content? The sick thing here is even if I was innocent it still would cost me $200 or more to prove it. The police could randomly hand out false tickets and make a profit.
Why wasn't this twit out making our city safer instead of harassing good people?
Here's the rub. It's only a $15 ticket. BUT there are $83.50 pre-court charges so the total comes to $98.50. That's the hundred dollars I needed to fix the dryer. I don't exactly have money to be pissing away on some cop trying to make big numbers. It gets worse. TN has a point system. If you lose 12 points off your license then your license can be revoked. This fool stop sign is worth 4 points! If I am going to lose a third of the points off my license I want to be racing to some meeting that I'm late to and blatantly run some red light at a major intersection!
I am a good driver. I'm alert and have great reflexes. I drive a little fast but mostly obey all other laws (Sarah in the front seat is where I fudge). I pull over for emergency vehicles while watching others just stop in the road. I see moronic behavior go up punished on the road while I am reamed for a traffic violation at a time of night when all the rules should change anyway.
I was in such a good mood. Sarah and I were having such good talk. Cathy and I were planning on lounging in bed and sharing laughs. This moron that didn't have the decency to let me off with a warning (which is what post-midnight at that intersection should have been) had nothing but negative effects on me. He did not make me a better or more cautious driver as I spent most of my day lead footing it in anger. I drove distracted as I kept fretting over and over the situation. My productivity today was killed because I had no energy and lost all cares and couldn't get my mind off of how to handle this. I decided no longer to freely volunteer any time to Knoxville. That means no more free juggling shows no matter how good the cause. There was no positive to come from this but to pad the KPDs budget.
So, what do I do? On Monday do I requistion the squard car's video tape to see how badly I did or did not run the sign? Or does that preserve evidence that otherwise would be discarded? Do I just pay the fine and watch my insurance rates go through the roof? Do I go to court and if I do what do I plead? Guilty? Not Guilty? No content? The sick thing here is even if I was innocent it still would cost me $200 or more to prove it. The police could randomly hand out false tickets and make a profit.
Why wasn't this twit out making our city safer instead of harassing good people?
Amy Speaks
Amy just came up to me asking for a "Hambone." Took me a minute. She wanted a hairbow. Hair bows are pretty serious. It means that Amy is very happy. She takes them out when she is not happy. The picking of the hair bow is critical. Although her drawer contains more than a dozen she gets it in her mind that a particular bow is the one to wear and she will dig and dig and search and search until she finds just the right one. It is really a fun activity.
Incomplete List of Broken Things
two dryers, Jeep exhaust system (could be manifold, muffler and/or catalytic converter), car tie rods (possibly cv joints), car tire, garage door, air conditioner, Sarah's scooter, Tommy's scooter, yard, dog's bladder, kitchen cabinets, driveway, Noah's ant farm, all computers, drywall, downstairs bathroom, upstairs bathroom flooring, upstairs bathroom caulk, Tommy's bed, wood floors, Tommy's bicycle, Sarah's bicycle, Noah's bicycle, DVD player, my office, fire extinguisher
My spirit.
My spirit.
Yesterday I was happy
Yesterday I was high on life. Everything looked like it was going well and going to come together. Today I hate where I live, how I live and why I live.
I have a charitable event that I do on Friday Oct 8th. That ends my community support for this shit town. I understand why everyone hates Knoxville after 2 decades. I came here for college and tried to help my friends that grew up here understand that this is a great community but inevitably after 2 decades everyone gets fed up and leaves. Once retired, people come back. It's a good place to retire because then you probably have less than 2 decades in you and can put up with the crap until you die.
I've had my two decades of this place. I give up!
I have a charitable event that I do on Friday Oct 8th. That ends my community support for this shit town. I understand why everyone hates Knoxville after 2 decades. I came here for college and tried to help my friends that grew up here understand that this is a great community but inevitably after 2 decades everyone gets fed up and leaves. Once retired, people come back. It's a good place to retire because then you probably have less than 2 decades in you and can put up with the crap until you die.
I've had my two decades of this place. I give up!
Exposed
And the boy stood naked in the window looking out over evil, distruction, and chaos. He could see no good. It is unsafe. How could he even begin to think of stepping out into such a world? His Genie is out there! His recently found self-confidence is sucked from him leaving a pit in the boy's stomach. He turns his back on the world to see his room, safe, secure, isolated; and he moons the outside.
It's too much
I feel so beat down that I don't have words. How many kicks does this dog have to take?
Friday, October 01, 2004
Few Words
Not being able to blog while I work except by cell phone is cramping my style!
Today was a huge deadline. Got a week extension so my stressed dropped hugely. I'm real focused right now.
Noah had a great soccer practice. I really like this new league we are in. Amy rolled in a pile of sand as if she was at the beach. Tommy joined her. They are frequently at the same mentality.
Time to catch my breath and eat something.
Today was a huge deadline. Got a week extension so my stressed dropped hugely. I'm real focused right now.
Noah had a great soccer practice. I really like this new league we are in. Amy rolled in a pile of sand as if she was at the beach. Tommy joined her. They are frequently at the same mentality.
Time to catch my breath and eat something.
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