Monday, January 31, 2005

Outsourcing Review

Religious services outsourced to India
India's cost advantage eroding
Congress announces the outsourcing of the presidency
McDonald's outsources the drive-thru
Death to outsourcing - pioneer outsourcer Conseco returns to America

And of course, if you need help outsourcing contact SI Designs.

Woof! Woof!

Molly's graduating class

The car remains on blocks (put up 1/15) helping to preserve my membership into Rednecks of Knoxville. On the positive side yesterday I took off the calipers and disks so getting the car back together should be easy now. By midweek Cathy should be mobile again. Posted by Hello

Of Grasshoppers

Student: I plan to speak loudly.
Master: Plan to be heard.
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Once again I am faced with the infamous "String DLGASKDESTTS_MSG1 was not found in string table." while trying to install Macromedia's ColdFusion Studio 5. I'll repost from November 13
"String DLGASKDESTTS_MSG1 was not found in the string table."

The solution is provide in a comment on by Gianluca Neri of

Here's what I've just found using Google Groups (God Bless Google):
The "String DLGASKDESTTS_MSG1..." error message that you received may have been caused by other running applications when you launched the Install Wizard. I suggest that when you install,
close all other applications including any applications that are running in the background. If you have an anti-virus installed in your system, temporarily disable this while doing the installation.

As an additional safeguard that will minimize the chance of having those error messages again, I also suggest you follow these instructions:
1. Please delete the Program Files\Common Files\InstallShield\Engine
2. Clear out the Temp folder
3. Delete the following folders (IF they exist):
\Program Files\InstallShield Installation
\Program Files\InstallShield Installation
\Program Files\InstallShield Installation
\Program Files\InstallShield Installation
Note: Please make sure you can view hidden files and folders before
trying those steps has this to say about his stats and this error.

Time to install some software.

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Rehash the past

I really had hoped to do more productive things with my evening than this but my wife's character has been wrongly attacked (within the comments) by people I have loved and cared about from my past no less.

I spent roughly $6000 in therapy, a bunch time and swallowed a lot of Pfizer's best to move beyond January 2, 2000. I do not want to go there again but for the sake of getting the facts straight I have dusted off some old journals and flipped through some pages. The end result of my therapy is that I have moved beyond my first marriage. I'm not going to take one fifth of my life and wipe it from memory but it is now behind me. I still wish good thoughts on all the people that touched me during my first marriage including my ex. A big problem I had with my divorce was how it may affect my relationship with the other people I grew to know and love, my ex-inlaws, our mutuals friends, etc. I post the following to set the record straight with no intent to enrage, hurt or defame.

I have lived many lives. One them was a seven year span of time with my first wife. She came into my life after I had sworn off seeking serious relationships. I wanted to date around and after one of our early dates (my journal on April of 1993 states that we had been dating 2 months) my first wife stayed over at my apartment and didn't leave until the year 2000. I'm not going to try to sum up those 7 years in a couple of paragraphs. We had many good times and there were other times that we were at each other's throats. I gave all my love to her. Many people to this day did not understand why we were together. The rumors of my ex-wife's infidelities throughout our relationship did not escape my ears and on at least one occasion she told me directly the sordid details of an incident just 3 weeks after our marriage. We lived together for roughly 4 years and were married roughly 3.

At the end of 1997 or the beginning of 1998 I was laid off. I had $38,000 in the bank , some mutual funds and another $14,000 in a 401k. Between my credit cards, my ex-wife's credit cards, and our joint credit cards we had roughly $30-40k in debt then there was the house and one car loan. I had a decision to make. I'd recently started a business endeavor that was primarily marketing dialup Internet service and required almost no infrastructure or capital investment. I could invest the $38,000 plus cash in the 401k to make the business work OR I could pay off our debts, live debt free but immediately have to go back to working for someone else. My ex and I discussed the pros and cons heavily. With the business there was a greater chance of reward (more money to be earned!) but a risk of hardship on our relationship. We discussed the possibility that entrepreneurialship could hurt us. Together we decided to take the chance.

The business floundered. I ended up destroying my perfect credit history. I skipped mortgage payments to make payroll for my employees. I worked every waking moment. I worked in my sleep. I gave up sleep to work. I did neglect my wife in the name of providing us an awesome future. In the name of riches to come. I promised a little sacrifice then would pay in the long run. I begged for her support. Client deposit checks would come in and she would say, "Good! Now we have money for a vacation!" while I would think "Thank God I can pay the staff!" I felt her support lessening and at one point was so burdened by her that I sent her and friend to Cancun so I could have a week of undisturbed work. Yes, there was no balance between work and family for me.

In October 1999 we threw one of our famous Halloween parties. They were fun! It served as a dual 30th birthday party for me. My ex's previous boyfriend was there. My ex flirted and danced with most of the guys while I flirted with the girls. Cathy was there. It was the first time I met her and we spoke all of 3 or 4 sentences. I remember thinking "I'd like to get to know her better but I could never cheat on my wife." And that is no lie!

In November 1999 my ex announced to me that she wasn't getting the love and attention from me that she needed. She said she had rented a cabin in the mountains and was going to spend the weekend with a guy that had caught her eye. She told me in detail just what she planned to do with this guy. It was enough detail to get a person on the 6 o'clock news from an over-the-top jealous reaction. I had deadlines to meet that if I failed to meet the bank would take our house. I told her she had to make her own decisions. That weekend I cried hard. She had already been dating him for awhile. Had I said, "tell him you and I will be using the cabin" would she have cancelled her date? Would it have saved our marriage? Probably not. And we would have lost everything we owned which in the end she took anyway except for the house which she ended up asking for and I said no.

In December 1999 the guy who had described my ex in terms of golf balls, hoses and chrome needed a place to stay because his wife/partner of 10 or 15 years had kicked him out over his relationship with my ex. He lived in my house for a week. I drew the line when one day his car was in my driveway being worked on with my tools. I declared to my ex "it's one thing to use a man's wife but to use a man's tools is wrong!"

On January 2, 2000 it looked as if my wife and I were going to patch things up. We held hands and looked deeply into each others eyes and she said, "I want a divorce. Our marriage is irreconcilable."

On February 18, 2000 some friends had Cathy and I get together for pool and drinks. She was going through a divorce as well and they thought we could help be moral support for each other. My journal for February 2000 shows my ex as already having moved into another place with her boyfriend and packing her things well before my first date.

On May 23, 2001 my divorce became legal. My ex had dragged out for almost a year and a half a divorce for a couple that owned nothing and had no kids. On August 25, 2001 I remarried and for anyone that has ever questioned it, no, Cathy was not pregnant.

In summary, Cathy and I were not dating until long after my ex had requested a divorce and not until long after the details of her relationship during our marriage had been made clear to me. "Makes you wonder what type of woman it takes to step in and help break up a marriage that is hanging on by a thread…" There was no thread. Cathy did not have anything to do with the end of my first marriage!

Lottery Results Posted

A little slow to get them up today.

Of Grasshoppers

Student: I slept in!
Master: Rest is for the weary.
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Man did I ever have vivid, full color strange dreams last night!

Saturday, January 29, 2005

Out of milk!

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Knoxville worked itself into a panic last night as forecasters warned of people destined to be stuck in their houses. Knowing we were low on milk I thought of turning into Weigel's but the parking lot was packed. Their shelves probably bare anyway. Oh! As I type this I realize we have more milk in our extra fridge.

Friday, January 28, 2005

My Famous Wife!

The Knoxnews' Blog linked to my wife on her road rage post! I hope she doesn't forget the kids and I in her celebrity.
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This Morning
I'm on my last day of this Plumtree Portal contract. I'm disappointed because the project did not achieve the desired goals. A co-worker assures me that I had a daunting task in front of me and that I did great work. I don't like leaving something incomplete.

On a big positive we are beginning week 23 of the wife's pregnancy (click here to offer name suggestions) (and a discussion on vasectomies) and I finally got the nerve to tell my parents. Funny how we grow older and still fear our parents judgement! They reacted well but I bet they had some interesting conversation when the phone hung up. My mother asked "how are you going to get by?" I assured her we will although with no predictable income I sometimes wonder myself.

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Maybe I have ghosts..and they were smokers

I get the weirdest smells in the house sometimes. Rarely but from time to time I could swear that I smell cigarette smoke. A quick check of the kids shows they aren't sneaking smokes. The wife doesn't smoke and neither do I? So I conclude it must be the fire place or a leaky window and a strong wind current carrying it from a neighbors house.

Well for the first time I'm sitting here swearing up and down that I'm smelling a cigar! Very faint. But there is that sweet yet pungent smell in the air. Could it have something to do with the Jasmine and Peppermint oils I've been putting in the incense burner?

From the mouths of babes

Amy staggering into the kitchen way before she should be awake.
Dad: "You need to go night night."
Amy: "No. I need to be awake."

From the mouths of babes

Amy (2.5): "Yeeeehaw!"
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This Morning
Wow! I woke up at 2:30 to begin documentation work and because MS Word was crashing and this machine is so dog gone slow it is now 4:30 and I'm just getting in gear. That's what most of my days are like. I spent hours getting to the point of being able to do something only to be distracted by something else or redirected to other efforts. It's very frustrating.

On the positive side, the lottery numbers are posted.

Today's challenges:
  • 8 hours of coding (PHP)
  • 72 hours of documentation (Plumtree)
  • 8 hours of security setting adjustments (Plumtree)
  • 3 hours training other staff (Plumtree)
  • 1.5 hours mundane name and setting changes in system (Plumtree)
  • Spend 6am-8am getting the kids off to school (I'll get to the office at 9am)
  • leave office at 2pm for bank and pick Tommy up from school
  • by 4pm have Tommy in Lenior city for STAR until 5pm with a 20 minute drive on either side
  • plan a Scout meeting and have materials ready for a 6:30-7:30 meeting (I'll get out at 8pm)
  • Cook remaining 2 lbs of ground beef or throw it away
  • prepare dinner and feed family (can you say McDonald's!)

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Now that's some hose work!

Firefighters Suspended for Sex on Duty
...three men, including a captain, admitted to having sex with a fourth firefighter, a woman, while on duty..."They even conspired to keep it secret by putting one person on watch so they wouldn't get caught."...The probe follows an investigation after city firefighters attended a local porn-star costume ball last July.
Hehe! They had the balls to type "The probe" within the context of that article!

Worse Day of the Year

I'm certainly glad its over

Situational 20/20

Apparently I don't need glasses anymore. (I've lost them). Found them in a very logical place.
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This Morning
Mishandled Tommy this morning causing problems with the wife.

Need to buy gas for the grill and a new cpu fan. Went to the inlaws to be there while their chimney was inspected and I left oranges and Tommy's homework there so I suppose I have to run out that way too. I have days of documentation to create and programming to do.

Buy me!

I am worth $2,347,860.00 on

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Gettin' hot

The CPU fan on my development server is dying. I've shut the machine down to save its life.

I smell a storm a brewin'!

Of Grasshoppers

Student: I'm overburdened.
Master: Then lighten your load.
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This Morning
Holy cow the short term is gone! I was just sitting down to post something inciteful complete with a good title and wham! it's gone.

Things on my mind:
  • Invoice client
  • Fix son's scout uniform and my scout uniform
  • Work on project 1, 2, 3 and 4 all at the same time
  • Balance budget
  • Fix car
  • ...

Monday, January 24, 2005

Sunday, January 23, 2005

The government knew

In 1972 our government first conceived the 2001 terrorist's attack as written in a 1977 report summarizing 5 years of research and suggestions that "is a sound plan which will curtail the risk of hijacking substantially."

How many organizations dropped the ball?!

Life (and death) Immitates Art

Husband Commits Suicide, Then Wife Wakes from Coma and asks for husband in an Italian town just 40 miles from Verona, where star-crossed lover Romeo killed himself believing Juliet to have died but minutes later Juliet woke up and seeing Romeo dead, stabbed herself.

Buy your tickets in PA

Powerball winner from Pennsylvania....again!
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This Morning
My computer is moving so slow that if it gets any slower I'm going to have to start programming on paper! I think it is all related to my having installed MS One Note. I've considered uninstalling it but I like the concept of the program and don't want to go through the hassle of recovering the license. It's time for some memory upgrades. It's really time for a new desktop but other things, like food, must come first.

I have lots of computer work to do today. Man is it ever cold!

Saturday, January 22, 2005

Someone heard a thud?

Half-Ton Man Drops 500 Lbs I didn't know someone could be 1,072 pounds and still be alive. Unreal! It seems like your floor joists would have to reinforced among other technical difficulties.

Money for smart people; dumb people just write a check to the author

$1 million treasure hunt hidden in pages of fairy tale

The jackpot is actually 12 jewels hidden in very public places around the United States. Think diamonds, think rubies, think the rarest, most perfect Kashmir sapphire.
"A Treasure's Trove: A Fairy Tale About Real Treasure for Parents and Children of All Ages" is the realization of the author's 25-year-old dream to create a puzzle sandwiched between the pages of a classic, timeless fairy tale. He was inspired by 1979's "Masquerade," for which author Kit Williams hid a necklace made of rare gems and gold that was found in the English countryside three years later.
It's rare, but not unheard of, for self-published works to become big successes...
But will readers ever find it? Stadther, who acknowledges that he's not great at word puzzles, thinks so: "It's not rocket science. It's all in front of you."

This week's clue: "Hint: Tackle repositories."

The CNN article also reveals two of the treasure pieces as an "ant" has 4 1/2 carats of pave diamonds for legs and a beetle with black diamonds to encrust its head, a canary diamond for they eye and more diamonds on the insect's belly. Then there are the moveable parts: The jaws depress and the wings open to show a 10-carat blue tanzanite with surrounding diamonds and latticework.

See also: 100 puzzles,clues,maps,tantalizing tales,and stories of real treasure by Michael Stadther

Friday, January 21, 2005

Now why didn't I think of that?!

Bidder sells Absolutely Nothing Current bid: £50.02
For Sale: Absolutely Nothing.

Do you have too much stuff? Nowhere to put all your auction buys? Too much money?

Well this auction is for you!

This is a fantastic, once in a lifetime opportunity to buy absolutely nothing! The successful bidder will receive absolutely nothing direct from me.

The perfect gift for the person who has everything.
Takes up no space. Easy to store.
Helps fight capitalism. Possibly.
No postage required.
Environmentally friendly, 100% organic and edible.
(Note. It is not recommended that you eat absolutely nothing for prolonged periods.)

Bid now on this once in a lifetime opportunity!

Please note. This is a genuine auction, and the successful bidder will receive absolutely nothing.

Questions from other buyers for this listing
Q: What is it good for? Answered on 21-Jan-05
A: Nothing.
Q: Will I be able to return nothing, if not completely satisfied? Answered on 21-Jan-05
A: No, because you will receive nothing in the first place.
Q: The great Buddha stated: "Nothing is permanent". So does that mean if I win this, I'll never be able to shift it should the need arise? Answered on 21-Jan-05
A: Nothing could be further from the truth.
Q: I'm a bit concerned about your feedback rating of nothing. Will you accept escrow? It's not lack of trust, just sensible caution. Answered on 21-Jan-05
A: The answer to this should be obvious. I have no feedback rating, as I have absolutely nothing to sell. My friends say I'm nice though, if that helps.
Q: i asked my wife if she'd like a diamond ring, she said she'd like nothing better, can you re-assure me that this is the nothing she is referring to? Answered on 21-Jan-05
A: Nothing is certain, but it seems likely.
Q: What happens if I win this auction and nothing arrives damaged? Will the GPO accept a written signature for absolutely nothing? Perhaps if you were to not send a sausage then I could confirm that is what I had received.... Answered on 21-Jan-05
A: If you receive nothing damaged from the Post Office, you should consider yourself very lucky!
Q: hello, does the Absolutely Nothing also include f*ck all, for free? ta uncle.wilco Answered on 21-Jan-05
A: Sorry no. This offer includes nothing.
Q: Hi, You state this is a once in a lifetime deal. Can I assume that this is a special edition? I'd hate not to receive common, general purpose nothing. Thanks CCM Answered on 21-Jan-05
A: You can assume nothing. Hope this helps.
Q: Can you confirm that I will not receive feedback were I to win this? This may have some value for me. Answered on 21-Jan-05
A: You will receive absolutely nothing from me. You may receive something (fame, notoriety, strange looks in the street) as a consequence of bidding, however they will not be from me.
Q: Could you provide some photos I have always though i had aboslutely nothing already but would appreciate knowing if yours is the same. Answered on 21-Jan-05
A: Sorry, I have absolutely nothing to take a photograph with.
Q: I want to bid on this. Can you totally guarantee that if I win the bidding I will receive absolutely nothing? It would be just my luck to pay and then receive *something* Thank you. all_day_breakfast. (I've been searching for nothing for a long time now) Answered on 21-Jan-05
A: Nothing is guaranteed.
Q: Is the absolutely nothing you are offering new or used? and if it's the latter how long was it used for and to what end? Regards, Peztone. Answered on 21-Jan-05
A: It's pre-owned. I've had absolutely nothing for a few years now, and thought it was time to get rid of it. Being nothing, it's in exactly the same condition as when I first received it.

My Life

My Life is broken up like chapters in a book. Each chapter corresponds to a place I was living.

The major chapters are Wilmington, NC; Cary, NC; Kenner, LA; Medford, NJ; Germantown, TN; and Knoxville, TN. Some of the chapters have significant subsections.

Wilmington, NC - Initiation
I was born at 7:08am on October 24, 1969 at New Hanover Hospital in Hanover County, Wilmington, North Carolina. I was the first child in the family so I came at any time. My parents lived in an efficiency over someone's garage until I was nearly 3. At that time the termites dropping into my crib combined with the expectant arrival of my brother prompted a move to a house my grandfather rented to my parents. Of all places, we lived on Park Avenue!

Wilmington is a beautiful city that today only sports a citizenship of 60,000. It reminds me still of Mayberry from the Andy Griffith show. The roads have large medians lined with moss covered trees which give the streets the appearance that you are driving through tunnels with sunbeams for lights. Many of the streets have an appearance similar to what you would see in a movie about the old south. Behind the houses runs a gravel alleyway for trash pickup and many houses have their garage access from behind the house to give the front a cleaner appearance.

My oldest memory is of the playground across the street from the efficiency. I simply remember being on the swings on a sunny day. I also remember our orange cat and if I am told the story correctly when my brother was born the cat found a new home at the docks.

I was in the efficiency from birth to roughly the age of 3. We stayed in the rented house from 3 to 6 (maybe approaching 7). My character, that would define the choices I would make in my life, first began developing in the rented house. Our next neighbor, Spy Farmer, was a Grand Dragon in the KKK. He was a wonderful person by my memory and I would have never guessed him to be involved with the KKK. His granddaughter (or was she his daughter?) Kim Farmer and I were cutting clay with cookie cutters. I really liked the small one in the shape of a chicken so I decided to keep it. My first theft at roughly age 5. I had a great moral issue with my action. I didn't like the feeling of having stolen and I returned the cookie cutter. I walked an honest and righteous path from that day forth.
Cary, NC - Fundamentals
Kenner, LA - Spirituality
Medford, NJ - Lust and Desire
Germantown, TN - Deterioration
Knoxville, TN - Rebirth
I'm ruined. Over-reaction

Thursday, January 20, 2005

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I could really use an assistant today.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

A favorite picture

Check out my girl. Add a caption!

Good Puppy!

Oops. I left Molly outside for an hour unattended. When I opened the door, there she was in the middle of the yard sitting patiently!
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This Morning
In that half awake place wierd things go through your head. In mine those things are mostly practice dialogs with people with whom I work. It is irritating because it feels like I'm working when I am asleep and it is not good rest. Also sometimes I solve problems but can't remember the solutions upon fully waking.

Of Grasshoppers

Student: I want to success.
Master: Quit wanting and just do it.

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

True Life Comedy

My life is filled with those moments that sitcoms are made of. Like a few minutes ago with the theme song to Scrubs "I can't do this all on my own. no I know I'm no supperman... I'm no supperman" running through my head, I gleefully saunter into the kitchen and perk up upon seeing someone has conveniently left the hat box sized Christmas cookie tin of sugar cookies that I so enjoy munching on out on the stove. I pop the lid to see the litter of cup cake like wrappings that once held about 4 cookies each but fear not for the tin has looked like this for a few weeks but never fails to yield a tasty delight. I dive my hand in and swoosh it around to score...a diaper! Not the kind of cookies I expected to put my hand into. But funny none the less! "da da DAAaa da I'm no superman!

I wish I could afford drugs

You know. Sometimes I wish I could pop some happy pills. You know. Pick a flavor: prozac, zoloft, wellburtrin..whatever. They should dispense these meds in gumball machines in the grocery for a quarter a pill.

Of course, then I remember that the body produces natural antidepressants and such. You simply have to trigger it with exercise! Or a clean desk. Or completing a task.

Now what pill do you pop to inspire yourself to get up and exercise?

Forgive and Forget Stress

Not only is being able to forgive divine, it can be a blessing to your mental and physical health, says an article in the January issue of Harvard Women's Health Watch.
  • Forgiveness reduces stress
  • Your heart will benefit
  • Stronger relationships
  • Less pain
  • More happiness

"It's a pretty rare injury"

"If you're going to have a nail in the brain, that's the way you want it to be"
Lawler didn't realise a ... nail had shot through his mouth...

"This is the second one we've seen in this hospital where the person was injured by the nail gun and didn't actually realise the nail had been embedded in their skull," neurosurgeon Sean Markey told KUSA-TV in Denver. "But it's a pretty rare injury."


My wife points out the Knoxnews article on Vacation Deficit Disorder ( )
Americans take just 10 vacation days a year. ... Europeans ... take five to eight weeks of vacation time annually. ... Japanese, who exhibit similar workaholic tendencies to Americans, get away from the office about 18 days a year.

I want to move to Europe!
... Nine nights is the ideal vacation length ... Vacation Deficit Disorder is killing us. Medical studies point to more instances of irritability, insomnia, hypertension and heart disease among those who have too little playtime. The bottom line: vacations make us live longer. That's the best reason to go away and have fun.
I have had one vacation that I can think of since 1997. That was a week at Disney World where everyone, including Cathy, expected me to propose to Cathy. Prior to reading this I had actually made a commitment to myself that I am going to budget for vacations. My kids need the experience of travel. The other day Noah was in a conversation and vacations came up he matter-of-factly blurted out "we don't take vacations." That made me sad.

Of Grasshoppers

Student: I need a life altering event.
Master: You are having a life altering event.
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I arose at 3am. Actually got out of bed. Could not keep myself awake. Laid in bed from 4:30-5:30 trying to convince myself to get up. The fire died. I allowed too much entertainment and not enough work this past weekend. I shall pay the price today. The weekend was packed with some computer work, computer maintenance customers, car repair, Tommy's D&D, car repair, dog walking, cooking, quality time with wife, and I allowed myself some downtime which I should reserve for when I finally die. "There will be plenty of time for sleep when I'm dead."

Now I spend the next 30 minutes building a new fire, or blogging, or programming. My mind wants to do all 3.

Monday, January 17, 2005

More Internet Fame Seekers

Another person with flash seeking Internet fame. Warning! It loops. You could become mesmerized and accidentally watch this ALL DAY!

New Dog Training

Puppy Training PadToday I started Molly's new house breaking program. She soaked one of her Super Puppy Pads (which saved the floor-they really work great!). It happened to be the one closest to the door. I folded it up and it was a miracle that it didn't drip my whole sprint. I ran out the door and to her "preferred spot" where I turned the pad on edge and let it drain. I spread it around a bit in a 2 foot square area. Hopefully this will "mark" her spot and she will start getting the idea.

Next, I move the solid stuff out. What fun!
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I have a feeling this is going to try to be a difficult day. I am not going to let it.
I have needs getting in the way of needs.
Today is the celebration of Martin Luther King, Jr.'s birthday.
"I Have A Dream" by Martin Luther King, Jr.

Five score years ago, a great American, in whose symbolic shadow we stand signed the Emancipation Proclamation. This momentous decree came as a great beacon light of hope to millions of Negro slaves who had been seared in the flames of withering injustice. It came as a joyous daybreak to end the long night of captivity. But one hundred years later, we must face the tragic fact that the Negro is still not free.

One hundred years later, the life of the Negro is still sadly crippled by the manacles of segregation and the chains of discrimination. One hundred years later, the Negro lives on a lonely island of poverty in the midst of a vast ocean of material prosperity. One hundred years later, the Negro is still languishing in the corners of American society and finds himself an exile in his own land.

So we have come here today to dramatize an appalling condition. In a sense we have come to our nation's capital to cash a check. When the architects of our republic wrote the magnificent words of the Constitution and the Declaration of Independence, they were signing a promissory note to which every American was to fall heir.

This note was a promise that all men would be guaranteed the inalienable rights of life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. It is obvious today that America has defaulted on this promissory note insofar as her citizens of color are concerned. Instead of honoring this sacred obligation, America has given the Negro people a bad check which has come back marked "insufficient funds." But we refuse to believe that the bank of justice is bankrupt. We refuse to believe that there are insufficient funds in the great vaults of opportunity of this nation.

So we have come to cash this check -- a check that will give us upon demand the riches of freedom and the security of justice. We have also come to this hallowed spot to remind America of the fierce urgency of now. This is no time to engage in the luxury of cooling off or to take the tranquilizing drug of gradualism. Now is the time to rise from the dark and desolate valley of segregation to the sunlit path of racial justice. Now is the time to open the doors of opportunity to all of God's children. Now is the time to lift our nation from the quicksands of racial injustice to the solid rock of brotherhood.

It would be fatal for the nation to overlook the urgency of the moment and to underestimate the determination of the Negro. This sweltering summer of the Negro's legitimate discontent will not pass until there is an invigorating autumn of freedom and equality. Nineteen sixty-three is not an end, but a beginning. Those who hope that the Negro needed to blow off steam and will now be content will have a rude awakening if the nation returns to business as usual. There will be neither rest nor tranquility in America until the Negro is granted his citizenship rights.

The whirlwinds of revolt will continue to shake the foundations of our nation until the bright day of justice emerges. But there is something that I must say to my people who stand on the warm threshold which leads into the palace of justice. In the process of gaining our rightful place we must not be guilty of wrongful deeds. Let us not seek to satisfy our thirst for freedom by drinking from the cup of bitterness and hatred.

We must forever conduct our struggle on the high plane of dignity and discipline. we must not allow our creative protest to degenerate into physical violence. Again and again we must rise to the majestic heights of meeting physical force with soul force.

The marvelous new militancy which has engulfed the Negro community must not lead us to distrust of all white people, for many of our white brothers, as evidenced by their presence here today, have come to realize that their destiny is tied up with our destiny and their freedom is inextricably bound to our freedom.

We cannot walk alone. And as we walk, we must make the pledge that we shall march ahead. We cannot turn back. There are those who are asking the devotees of civil rights, "When will you be satisfied?" we can never be satisfied as long as our bodies, heavy with the fatigue of travel, cannot gain lodging in the motels of the highways and the hotels of the cities. We cannot be satisfied as long as the Negro's basic mobility is from a smaller ghetto to a larger one. We can never be satisfied as long as a Negro in Mississippi cannot vote and a Negro in New York believes he has nothing for which to vote. No, no, we are not satisfied, and we will not be satisfied until justice rolls down like waters and righteousness like a mighty stream.

I am not unmindful that some of you have come here out of great trials and tribulations. Some of you have come fresh from narrow cells. Some of you have come from areas where your quest for freedom left you battered by the storms of persecution and staggered by the winds of police brutality. You have been the veterans of creative suffering. Continue to work with the faith that unearned suffering is redemptive.

Go back to Mississippi, go back to Alabama, go back to Georgia, go back to Louisiana, go back to the slums and ghettos of our northern cities, knowing that somehow this situation can and will be changed. Let us not wallow in the valley of despair. I say to you today, my friends, that in spite of the difficulties and frustrations of the moment, I still have a dream. It is a dream deeply rooted in the American dream.

I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out the true meaning of its creed: "We hold these truths to be self-evident: that all men are created equal." I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slaveowners will be able to sit down together at a table of brotherhood. I have a dream that one day even the state of Mississippi, a desert state, sweltering with the heat of injustice and oppression, will be transformed into an oasis of freedom and justice. I have a dream that my four children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin but by the content of their character. I have a dream today.

I have a dream that one day the state of Alabama, whose governor's lips are presently dripping with the words of interposition and nullification, will be transformed into a situation where little black boys and black girls will be able to join hands with little white boys and white girls and walk together as sisters and brothers. I have a dream today. I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, every hill and mountain shall be made low, the rough places will be made plain, and the crooked places will be made straight, and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together. This is our hope. This is the faith with which I return to the South. With this faith we will be able to hew out of the mountain of despair a stone of hope. With this faith we will be able to transform the jangling discords of our nation into a beautiful symphony of brotherhood. With this faith we will be able to work together, to pray together, to struggle together, to go to jail together, to stand up for freedom together, knowing that we will be free one day.

This will be the day when all of God's children will be able to sing with a new meaning, "My country, 'tis of thee, sweet land of liberty, of thee I sing. Land where my fathers died, land of the pilgrim's pride, from every mountainside, let freedom ring." And if America is to be a great nation, this must become true. So let freedom ring from the prodigious hilltops of New Hampshire. Let freedom ring from the mighty mountains of New York. Let freedom ring from the heightening Alleghenies of Pennsylvania! Let freedom ring from the snowcapped Rockies of Colorado! Let freedom ring from the curvaceous peaks of California! But not only that; let freedom ring from Stone Mountain of Georgia! Let freedom ring from Lookout Mountain of Tennessee! Let freedom ring from every hill and every molehill of Mississippi. From every mountainside, let freedom ring.

When we let freedom ring, when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children, black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual, "Free at last! free at last! thank God Almighty, we are free at last!"

What would Martin Luther King, Jr do?
Martin Luther King Jr.'s youngest daughter participated in a march in Atlanta in December 2004, in support of a federal constitutional amendment to ban gay marriage. The Rev. Bernice King has said she doesn't believe her father died to give homosexuals the right to marry.

A brief look at MLK's life
Harry Belafonte met the Rev. Martin Luther King Jr. in the 1950s, he promised to always assist in his mission.

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Don't even breathe!

What compells someone to become this good?

AUSTRUMI is updated to 0.9.2

AUSTRUMI has been updated to version 0.9.2. All programs and version changes are listed here. The iso for Astrumi can be found on SourceForge.

I first found Astrumi while trying to find an NT administrator password while trying to recover a broken Windows XP installation. Excellent CD!

What the hell are we doing?

We are such idiots...

Let's not just forget the past but let's pave over it. The CIA reports that China and India will be world super powers by the year 2020 and the United States will take a backseat.

This is old news. China has forecasted the demise of the United States in reports from the early 1980s and again in 1991 siting the same timeframe that the CIA is now releasing.

Of course with the behavior of our troops as sited above and the current leadership (ie. Bush) thinking of now and not caring about our societies future (eg. spending our money like mad, accumulating debt like we will never have to pay it, etc and all in the name of some ill conceived war which I still contend is a person vendetta between Sr and Saddam).

I love my country. I want it to stay on top. But with leadership that destroys our National Parks (see also), doesn't care about education, can't separate religion from state, and doesn't care about the environment, how can we do anything but fall?

New guest in our menagerie

The other day I saw the cat playing with the biggest mouse I've ever seen. The wife and mother-in-law jump straight to "rat" but I swear its not a rat. The wife saw it wandering through the yard today followed by a fairly disinterested catdangling from the cat's mouth and squirming to get out. Apparently it is just not as exciting as a mouse. Our new yard pet? Looks like a gerbil. I suppose the neighbors got rid of theirs.

Shores of Titan

James at Puerilis points out that a "Space probe finds shoreline on Titan." Now just watch for one of these companies to start selling the highly desireable beach front property soon!

Lottery Results Posted

I was a little slow today but the lottery results are now posted on TN Lottery Results, TN Lottery Results Blog and TN Lottery Results Blogspot.

Feel free to create links to those sites and help see if we can get google to start indexing them. They have great ranking on MSN and Yahoo but aren't even listed on google.

Procrastination Costs!

So last weekend while the weather was gorgeous I changed the brake pads on the rear wheels but couldn't get myself motivated to do the front brakes. Last night after a severely loud pop the "brake light" on the dash came on (indicates low brake fluid) and my tire is covered in brake fluid and naturally I have trouble stopping the car. My $35 dollar repair just got expensive. I am sure the caliper broke and may have taken the brake line with it and may have gouged the tire.

I want to beat myself up over this but I'm just accepting the path I have walked. Things will work out.

Of Grasshoppers

Student: Where have you been?
Master: Occasionally, even I must stray from the path to find my direction again.

Pop! Goes the Circuit!

Putting the microwave and the coffee maker on the same circuit is fine unless you turn them both on at the same time. Looking at the circuit map of my house makes me laugh because the bathroom outlet where the hair dryer is used is on that very same circuit! Me thinks some rewiring is in order.

Friday, January 14, 2005

Pressure is on

Once again all deadlines fall in the same timeframe. I hope before I die I can take a real vacation.

My 8 year old son said today, "we don't take vacations." as a matter-of-fact response to someone else discussing vacation activities. That made me sad.

I felt today that I've failed my 8 year old son. He did exceptionally well to excel within his class to participate in a school wide spelling bee. He was one of 22 students and made it to the third round. By that point he was one of 11 contestants left. He was knocked out with "tiresome" by spelling it "tiresom". As they said the word, I subvocalized "alright! Easy one!" Murph (see post) struck. The failure comes in that we bought the practice for the spelling bee during last school year. It sits somewhere in our mess. Noah excelled on his own. I wonder what he could have achieved had I practiced with him.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

I remember

I remember being in either 8th, 9th or 10th grade and finding this really cool but strange looking pair of scissors in one of the house bathrooms. I got curious, held them near my eye, and clip! trimmed my eyelashes.

The next day I got complimented by females (students and teachers -- probably only two people commented but in a teenage memory everyone was staring) on how nice my eyelashes looked and how jealous girls must be of my mine. In hindsight they were probably being facetious but at the time I was both embarassed and thinking the compliments were real...besides, it got me attention from the ladies!

What I did with my weekend

My new disposal came in the mail but had a factory installed 3 prong plug installed (model 444-5a) where my old in sink erator (model 444-3) had to be wired directly to the switch. So I installed a GFIC outlet in addition to the new disposal. Relatively easy work but I had to complicate it rerouting some of the plumbing. The new disposal is quiet and working well. I do highly recommend it. The service was exception and the equipment good quality.

Of course, then I decided to change the brakes on the car. Doesn't everybody do this?

This makes your car stop. I only completed the rear brakes but considering that of the 4 brake pads I could only find 3 and of those 3 two were braking on the metal and one had only a sliver of pad left I would say it had become rather urgent (yes, 3 pads implies that one disk was braking on the caliper piston).

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Tuesday, January 11, 2005

A bag with an interesting opening

Found The Velvet Vulva (complete with button clitoris) while surfing BlogExplosion but forgot to note the original posted for appropriate credits.

Lesson on how to fold a shirt

My wife claims this is not an appropriate fold (it works!).

Cheat's Coronation Chicken

Here is one of the recipes I've been promising. This cooks up in about 30-40 minutes with relatively small mess. I personally think it tastes best after sitting overnight.

The recipe comes from the book The Ultimate 4 Ingredient Cookbook. I've provided two Amazon links at the bottom as the newest edition was not available at the time I posted this and the older edition (which I use) had some availability.

This first picture shows everything needed except the mixing bowls. You will need a graduated mixing bowl into which to measure the mayonnaise, a bowl to hold the pineapple juice, and finally a container to hold the finished entree.

The ingredients as listed on page 185 of the book:

1 tablespoon garam masala or curry powder
14 ounce can pineapple chunks in natural juice, drained and juice reserved
1 ¼ cups mayonnaise
3 cups cold cooked chicken, cut into bite-sized chucks
Note: I was going to put the conversions for the measurements above but I'm not sure what a tablespoon should convert to. Instead I offer you a link to's volume conversions:

I use the recipe as a guide and make adjustments for my needs. My first step is to prepare the chicken. I use 1 ½ lbs of boneless chicken breast. I lightly season it with some seasoning salt or greek seasoning and some Worcestershire sauce then broil about 6 minutes per side.

My next steps include draining the pineapple juice into its own bowl. I usually use 20 ounces of chunked pineapple instead of the 14 ounces called for in the recipe. (what should ounces convert to?)

Next I measure out roughly 1 ½ to 2 cups of mayonnaise.

The instructions from the book are:

Heat a dry heavy-bottomed skillet over medium heat. Add spice mix and heat for 1-2 minutes, stirring. Blend in 1-2 tablespoons reserved pineapple juice and cook, stirring constantly, for 1 minute. Add another tablespoon or so of juice and cook again for 1 minute. Add one more tablespoon and cook again. Leave to cool. Stir cooled paste into mayonnaise. Toss with pineapple and chicken. Season to taste. 4 servings.

I do not vary from their instruction much other than increased portions.

I use curry instead of garam masala. Remember Curries may prevent Alzheimers

Scientists have found that curcumin stops the accumulation of destructive beta amyloids that build up in the brains of sufferers.
The results, published in the Journal Of Biological Chemistry, suggest that curcumin would not only prevent the build-up of plaques in patients with the degenerative brain disease, but would block the plaques developing in the first place.

There are two tricks to making the curry paste. The first is in finding the correct skillet. And the second is finding the correct amount of heat (which may vary depending on your skillet). If you are turning your curry black and making your house smell like a campfire then you have one of those two things, or both, wrong. Your curry as it cooks should darken but not burn. It can become pasty like the consistency of a cheap toothpaste and still be used in your recipe. In my example, my paste was more liquid than I've every achieved before.

I have had great success with my Calphalon 10-Inch Omelet Pan where my stainless steel skillets have burned my curry and been a nightmare to clean. I believe the success is in the heavy thickness of the Calphalon and the way it heats slowly but retains the heat evenly.

I like to start with 2 tablespoons of curry and heat that with no liquid for 1-2 minutes depending on the temperature of the skillet. If you don't give your pan a chance to heat then you aren't really cooking the curry. I then put in 1 tablespoon of pineapple juice and again cook for 1 minute. As the recipe indicates we repeat this two more times then set aside to cool.

A better presentation:

  • Heat 1-2 tablespoons curry for 1-2 minutes
  • Blend in 1-2 tablespoons pineapple juice
  • Cook for 1 minute
  • Add 1 tablespoon pineapple juice.
  • Cook for 1 minute
  • Add 1 final tablespoon pineapple juice
  • Cook for 1 minute
  • Set pan aside to cool
Be sure to stir constantly during this process. I have a tendency to lose count of how many times I have added pineapple juice but I don't think it matters too terribly.

The book adds this "Cook's Know-how":

As with all ground spices, buy curry powder or garam masala in small quantities because it loses its freshness if kept for longer than 6 months. Store in a cool, dry, dark place. Try making your own blend by combining and grinding whole spices.
While my paste cools, I cube my chicken. Mix the cubed chicken and pineapple in a bowl. Mix the cooled curry paste and mayonnaise in the mixing bowl then add the curry mayonnaise mixture to the chicken and pineapple. Stir together.

The final product can be seen to the right. While spicy (tasty), this dish is not hot and should be appealing to most palates. This dish is ready to be eatten immediately. As I noted at the beginning, I find it a bit more flavorful the following day but it so tasty I have never been able to put it off that long. The dish stores well and can be prepared ahead of time to provide lunches and dinners throughout the week.


A New Day!

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This Morning
I've been wanting to post pictures from this weekend but have yet to download them.

Yesterday was a very busy day of work followed by an exciting Aspergers Support Group meeting. It's so nice to hear each others stories and feels good when you can lend someone some advice.

I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed this week.

Sunday, January 09, 2005

A New Day!

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This Morning
Some milestones were achieved. I allowed myself to sleep in. I'm feeling much better!

Let me tell you. Nothing wakes you up in the morning quiet like having a puppy lick you then exhale the aroma of poop. How do we make her stop eatting that stuff!

Friday, January 07, 2005

Warantees are great!

I see we aren't the only ones with dishwasher woes. I finally got off my duff and squeezed under the sink to find the serial number and service phone number for the garbage disposal. They said it was under warrantee and they could 1) send out a repair guy or 2) just send me a brand new unit with another 4 year warrantee. ok. think. think. think...hopefully the new one will arrive anyday now because with it out of commission the dishwasher sometimes needs to be run two or three times a load.

Some guys get all the luck

Man I wish my sex education had been like this!

Teacher Charged With Having Sex With Student
Janay Willson, 31, was arrested and charged with having sex with a 16-year-old male student in December 1999 and January 2000 but it did not come to light until 2004 [making her hormonally peaking 27 at the time of incident]

Orange teacher arrested for alleged sex with former students
Sarah Bench-Salorio, 28, was arrested for having sex with two former 13-year-old students in "numerous" locations.

So, I'm gathering that in your late 20s you ladies have strong uncontrollable desires much like us guys have our whole lives.

Look at the picture!

A New Day!

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This Morning
Juggled at the Boyscout pack meeting last night. What fun!

The station wagon is not to move from the driveway.

And my body still craves more sleep than I should be getting.

Thursday, January 06, 2005

I broke my blog!

Something on this page is causing this error
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Debugging will take some time.

The chicken recipes are coming soon!

Wednesday, January 05, 2005


My left eye is doing that twitching thing. I feel like Commissioner Charles Dreyfus.

Day of Appointments

Woke this morning to get the kids off to school
Next came Tommy's IEP (2.5 hours)
Leaving just enough time for Babies R Us
Then pickup Tommy from school
To take him to his doctor's appointment
Then rushing home to put in 8 hours of work
In a 2 hour spance of time
To be shortened through a required software update
Amidst a computer repair for a friend tonight
I must squeeze in two days of work
And familial duties.

Tuesday, January 04, 2005


I had such a good day today. I was so full of energy. Tommy has sucked the life out of me. I cannot complete the planned tasks tonight without some rest.


Tonight is so beautiful
The fog is thick
And the air absolutely still
Only a car or two can be heard
    in the distance
No planes fly tonight
Few lights pollute the darkness
The crickets are silent
The possum and raccoon have stayed home
A hoot owl speaks twice then says no more
My puppy sits faithfully with me
She too is still like the air
The air is crisp like a walk-in freezer
    at the grocery
But not cold
I could sleep on this log tonight
There is magic in the air
Blessed be
I have found calm and peace
After having a child yell at me
    For three hours
I have had a most exceptional day. I am very happy!
chili prior to a product demo... what a mistake!
everything is so loud today!

Stop Dreaming While You Can

I have watched so many simple dreams and wishes fade off into the distance that I have reached a point in my life where I believe it is less painful to quit dreaming than it is to have dreams and not see them fulfilled.

Giving up? No. I need not dreams. My children need dreams and hopes. Rather than waste dreams on me I will help them develop their own dreams and be happy by seeing theirs fulfilled.

Getting old might not be so bad

Ada Calhoun in her essay "Middle Ground" explains "Why teenage girls and middle-aged men belong together."

I haven't read the article yet but it's got one of those titles that makes you do a double-take.

Monday, January 03, 2005

Special Treat

Last night the cat and the puppy slept on the bed with Cathy and I all night long. Usually they chase each other. It was quite nice.
A New Day!

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This Morning
Still have some sinus but I'm feeling rested and much better. This week is going to be nuts.

Sunday, January 02, 2005

I am failing so badly.

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1001 Day Project

How To - Write a Best Selling Novel

How to write a best selling fantasy novel.

Top 10 Paranormal Events of 2004

Top Ten War Profiteers of 2004

I first saw the information here and they found it here (full article)

  1. AEGIS
  2. BearingPoint
  3. Bechtel
  4. BKSH & Associates
  5. CACI and Titan
  6. Custer Battles
  7. Halliburton
  8. Lockheed Martin
  9. Loral Satellite
  10. Qualcomm

OCD Animals

We pushed our couch back against the wardrobe so the girlscouts could all gather on the floor for their sleep over. The dogs are flipped because they can't walk behind it to go outside. We open the door and they (mainly the 12 year old) pace back and forth trying to figure out how to go behind the couch instead of walking straight out the front door.

The cat has knocked a single piece of food out of her bowl and it went under some mail on my desk. Now she is digging manically to get that one piece of food.

It must be this house!


My wife has a 30 GB Ipod that because of her Windows 98 computer she basically could not use. I feared the battery so dead at this point that it would have to be replaced. I bought a 2 year, no questions asked replacement warrantee but I think I let it expire without using the warantee. (action item for self: go bang head repeatedly into a concrete wall)

I've had the Ipod charging directly from a wall socket instead of the firewire port for the past two days and I'll be darned if the doggone thing didn't turn on this morning! Going to keep her charging for a bit whilst I find the software and see if it holds a charge. I still fear the need to buy a replacement battery.

Oh Vitality!

Late afternoon yesterday I was with a friend of mine helping a mutual friend of ours convert his computer network at his pizza restaurant from wireless back to wired. One of his computers sits on a shelf near the ceiling. To get to this machine I stepped back from the cabinet (imagine the height about where your kitchen sink would be) and I took two steps then launched myself through the air. On the counter sits the keyboards and an array of papers etc leaving about 10 cm for my foot to land so I choose to land my left foot sideways in that 10 cm space and use my right foot on the side of the cabinet to stablize myself then spin to balance myself on the toes of both my feet.

A couple of sentences later my friend had processed the action and commented "even when I was younger I wouldn't have done that."

I guess I've been watching too much Jackie Chan.

Tommy's Battles

Just how much fight should go into this. I'm an activist at heart and I know how to bring about change. At the University of Tennessee I brought about a major change during my time there. How many battles can one person fight? I have it within me to bring about change to the school system here but at what sacrifice and what gain?

New Dog Trick

Molly has been through dog school and has sort of learned to sit, stay, lie down, heal and so forth. We must keep practicing!

She also knows to shake hands.

One of our Christmas decorations is a pair of bells that hang on the inside door knob of the front door. We are in the process of teaching Molly to ring the bells whenever she wants out. She has now rang them deliberately twice. Sometimes she sits by the door, points her nose at the bells, and just stares.

On a very big positive, we haven't had a pee accident in the house in 36 hours or so! Of course, over the past two days I made an exerted effort to give her lots of unleashed playtime outside. The laser light at night in the yard really drives her nuts and provides great exercise!
A New Day!

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This Morning
I fell asleep at 9pm last night and woke at 9am this morning. I feel much better now!

My wife and I are at odds on how to handle sickness. She feels sickness is not an excuse for slowing down. That life must go on. I feel sickness is the body's way of saying it needs rest to make repairs. I think exercise should continue or increase when sick to help produce more white blood cells and then there should be much rest. The body can heal itself if given the opportunity.

Today I must commit to computing.

Saturday, January 01, 2005

A New Year!

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This Morning
Happy New Year! Welcome 2005!

I enter 2005 with a sore throat and sinus woes but I look into 2005 happily. 2005 will see much debt removed from our lives. 2005 will see our final child born. 2005 will see the affects of less yelling in the house on the children. It will take time for Tommy to catch up with the rest of us but with no yelling everybody will be happier. 2005 will be a time of great renovation on the house. 2005 will be exceptional!