Administrative Day

Looks like today is turning into one of those days that control me. I must just go where the winds take me.

I hate politics

School politics drive me ape. Totally unnecessary. When people put their career (teaching, administration) above the purpose (the students) then they need to be fired.

Of Grasshoppers

Student: Do I have a choice?
Master: You can choose to fight or choose to accept your destiny.

A New Day!

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This Morning
Slept hard last night rising at 6:15. Shut the alarm off before it went of to not disturb the wife. Tried hard to get dressed without waking the dog--failed. When upstairs and tried to get Sarah out of bed without waking Amy--failed. Tried to handle my stress--failed. What could be a great day I started off with temper and anger. Let's turn that around. Today shall be busy busy and we don't need contrived difficulties.

I had begun the day wanting to write on several topics but they have all faded. It is sometimes difficult to write about your life and live it at the same time.

Such a beautiful woman! 

Lucy at roughly 12 years old. Molly at 4 months is almost this big. 

You honestly didn't expect that someone who wears their brains on the outside wouldn't have glowing red eyes did you?
"Keep away, the sow is mine."
Stay tuned! Head spinning at 10! 

"I've got something even better planned next!" 

Good thing I was wearing googles when that exploded! 

"It's my birthday and I'm ready for a wild ride!" 

Hard to believe she didn't like holding babies... 

"Ok.. I'll pet it if I have to but as soon as you snap that picture I'm on the other side of the fence buddy!" 

"All I need is a little shuteye..." 

Molly at nearly 4 months (born May 1, 2004). Already large as most full size adult dogs. 

A New Day!

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This Morning
4am rolled around and I rolled out of bed. I tried the same at 1am but was definitely too tired to function. Now I'm wide awake and rearing to go. Let's make magic!

Poem - Current State of Me (aka A Single Moment)

The video (4MB 1:14) is just me reading the following which in essence is just a list of words so you may just want to save your bandwidth. I suggest that you read column one first, then column two, then left to right all the way down. In the video it sounds like I wrote this in 1988 but it was actually 1998.

Current State of Me (aka A Single Moment)

Writing — Things
Thinking — Change
Dreaming — Deranged
Blinking — Dazed
Pondering — Amazed
Wondering — Craze
Wandering — Maze
Listening — Beat
Hoping — Reach
Praying — Seek
Delaying — Weak
Straying — Lazy
Crazy? — Crazy!

-DM 6/1/1998

Normally I like to leave interpretation of any written piece to the reader, however, I think this probably stands to have some explanation otherwise I could just randomly pick words from a dictionary and call it art. Hmm.. Now that's not a terrible thought!

The following are straight from the journal (6 years ago) with the exception of one that required edits (it's a journal!) and the notes of course are from the present.

Writing — Things

The "things" I was writing were my journal entry and the poem itself

Thinking — Change

The thinking "change" was all that had gone on in my recent past from marriage to getting laid off to starting my own business.

Dreaming — Deranged

These were thoughts of an alternative path that I could have walked with no debt and unrealistic fantasy dreams. Regret of choices made, desires to change them and imagining how different things would be. Demented thoughts.

Blinking — Dazed

The dreaming-deranged overwhelmed me and I spaced out for a few. It felt great to momentarily be nowhere!

Pondering — Amazed

The stepping back into reality after resetting my fuse and realizing the significance of many of the choices I'd made in that recent (and far) past.

Wondering — Craze

The struggling I did with myself over whether or not I'd made good choices

Wandering — Maze

I would get lost in my own thoughts and sometimes could not escape myself. It would be like the walls closing in.

Listening — Beat

I simply took a second to enjoy the music Border's was playing

Hoping — Reach

My mind wanted someone to help me

Praying — Seek

Expanding on the former..a more spiritual cry for help.

Delaying — Weak

Recognition that I create my own Hell through procrastination, my biggest weakness.

Straying — Lazy

My inclination (at the time) to give up (note: an odd statement because I often don't quit even at my own expense.)

Crazy? — Crazy!

Am I losing it? Through my own actions - yes.(note: of course I did not lose it for another 2.5 years)

Progress!

The red station wagon after sitting many many weeks in the driveway has been moved to the mechanic's to troubleshoot the transmission problem. After that, eradicating the mold and fugus that grew on the ungodly amount of food we left in the car. Every crumb has become a science experiment. I swear when I opened the door a french fry asked, "Are we there yet?" I am so disappointed in myself for allowing that to happen!

An Interview

Resume submitted 8 months ago. Very exciting!

Of Grasshoppers

Student: When is the end?
Master: When you quit.

News from Iraqi

Take a moment to watch this. It's rather eye opening. News of the Resistance