Forget Reality Television; Forget Ed TV; Forget The Truman Show--try "Reality ME!" The entries below follow me throughout my day. Try on my shoes... This blog will document my success or failure on handling the daily challenges. Originally started as an anonymous pessimistic following of a difficult situation (ergo the poorly named cursed-juggler), this writing has turned into a pleasurable medium to inform friends and family and make new friends.
Saturday, July 31, 2004
Weakness leads to weakness
The first weakness: Having intelligence and not using it.
The second weakness: I lost my temper but should not have. As hard as I tried, yelling did not make the water jump back into the tank. Apparently water doesn't scare easily.
Fish Heads Fish Heads..
Cool!
Twins x 3
Storm Brewing
My focus is on balancing the books for the next hour or so.
Knox County Sample Ballot - With Commenting!
The Knox County State Primary and General Election Ballot is available at http://august5ballot.blogspot.com/ with the ability to anonymously comment and help influence the voting public. Only 4 days left! (effectively)
Bad Dad
Dog Training Humans
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This Morning
I woke this morning at 4:15 but did not drag myself from bed. Just keep trying Just keep trying. At 7 I heard rustling and hoped it was Noah because I wanted to hide in bed. Closer to 7:30 I decided the dog needed a walk (outside she said no) but outside I could hear Amy's voice. That ws when I remembered the boys were at the grandparents so at 7 it was Amy playing.
Amy helps with the dog. As I brewed coffee I asked Amy to "get Molly a chew toy" and she instantly emptied the cage of chew toys placing them on the dog bed.
Having great quality time with Amy! She is sitting in my lap eatting raisins and calling them "candy." We read a book together and she has told me all about Molly's chew toys.
She just showed me "o" on her book in multiple words.
Sarah rises. Amy runs off them comes back saying "a monster! a monster!"
Sarah takes some time to horse around with the puppy then is off to fix breakfast.
Friday, July 30, 2004
Creative Blogging
Humiliated Cat
Fee Checking..I mean Free Checking
I'm being fee'd to death!
Progress!
I remember that Sarah must be picked up this afternoon.
On to programming.
Life!
Free Hosting Down
What next?
Well, I think last night it may have died. Which is good in that we won't hear its horrid noise all the time. But bad in that I may have a water problem to contend with quite shortly. Fortunately, I have already contrived a solution. To my wife's chagrin it may involve tearing out a piece of wall!
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This Morning
My brother and his wife will appreciate that I am listed on Chiropractic Blogs!
I like numbers. So I woke up this morning at 4:44 and then again at 6:06. I should have stayed up at 4:44 of course.
Anyhow, today's focus is purely programming. I want to make major headway on my european project.
Today is the last day for early voting so I must get that done so I'll have to take some time to look up some issues and make sure I'm thinking correctly rather than thinking what I've been told.
Half Naked Thursday
I think that's about half of me.
Thursday, July 29, 2004
The evening
While Tommy got some horse riding in, Amy, Cathy, Noah and I played on playground. I demonstrated to the 8 year old some climbing techniques that had mom frowning and will have my back aching later. Amy only got kicked in the face once. She is so tough and plays so hard and tries to keep up with the big kids so much that she constantly looks abused. Between Tommy and Amy I am sure we will have an interview with DCS one day.
Ended the evening with a unique pleasure! A very good friend of mine looked me up and we chatted in length. He even suggested an employment opportunity that will require some deep thought and heavy consideration. I could have talked the rest of the night. It really makes my day when old buds find me or I find them. In our crazy adult parental lives it is so easy to become so egocentric that you begin feeling alone and without friends. Of course, communication and maintaining friendship is a two way street and I don't even stay in touch with my family enough much less my friends.
Time to hunker down to some coding. I had promised the wife some quality time tonight. I'll have to rain check for tomorrow.
Whoa! and Progress!
followed by Progress! Phone call to a client that has potential work.
Progress!
appointment scheduled with ITT Technical Institute admissions. I need to get paper from somewhere. I'd like to have a degree from UT but ITT or Devry will have to do. My ego doesn't like it. I feel they are 2nd hand but its better than buying a fake one. Perhaps my impression will change after I visit them on Tuesday.
Progress!
Resume and letter of introduction sent to a recruiter in Washington DC.
Report: Saddam has chronic prostate infection
Progress!
Time to move onto Domain transfer paperwork. Estimate: 1 hour labor.
Tubo Charged Mind
My mind races!
-Finish documenting email addresses, ftp information etc for domain transfers
-Send nasty gram to Sears DNC Request
-Call my state representative to start pushing fair credit/collections laws (I know..there are some out there but Joe Public doesn't know their rights)
-Continue reconciling accounts and bills in MS Money
-Program
-Social Networking
-Sales calls for Content Monkey
-Submit Resume(s)
-Update Dice, Monster, Linked-in and other online job tools
so much more..
Of Grasshoppers
Master: Only you can decide.
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This Morning
I did not get much sleep last night. As a result, I have started the day panicy. To success I have to do the work of 4 or 5 people. I really need help.
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
Tired and responsible
Of Grasshoppers
Teacher: Oh they'll learn alright!
Of Grasshoppers
Master: Free? These words will cost!
Father Duties
Progress
AND
I have a strong start to my documentation for the domain transfers.
Living Again
The immediate focus is to get the domains transferred. I can't sell a content management system if I cannot walk someone through the backend. This is the utmost importance.
Amy Awakes
Ambivalence
Do I program?
Do I open Act and put in contact information for sales calls today?
Do I skip Act and just start calling people?
Do I do the administrative stuff I've been delaying in order to get 4 domains transferred from one server to another?
Progress!
After 2001 I fell to pieces and have yet to regain a decent grasp of my finances. Today I know roughly what is going out and roughly what is coming in (nothing). It is very uncomfortable.
Well today I began getting things organized in MS Money! Perhaps I won't be so extreme as I was prior to 2001 but I am going to be able to do some decent forecasting and understand where our expenses truly are so that we can plug some holes.
Death to TV
He is hooked on tv like a drug. I gave up and just turned the television back on.
He is reading and make quick work of Orson Scott Card's "Ender's Game."
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This Morning
Woke at 6:15! Yes! We gave the dog free reign of the hosue last night so I policed a little bit. Only one urine stand soaked into the wood floor that I could find. Took the dog outside for 15 minutes and she barked and lay in the grass and ate the grass but did nothing else. I brought her back inside and she immediately peed on the floor.
My new tactics! 1) walk her, bring her inside, and immediately take her outside again 2) I'm going to keep her on the lease inside the house immediately after her walks and 3) from her walks she will go straight to her cage then from the cage straight to another walk
We have to at least paper train this dog.
Last Night
Tried to do some more work but my mind would not settle. I decided to spend some time with the wife but I think she would have preferred me be in a different room.
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Melted
Calgone take me away!
Today's video clips
Watch Amy Count (1 min 10mb)
I'm going to kill my bandwidth!
Progress!
However, I have found my desktop. I have thrown stuff away. I have sorted mail (some dating back to 2003). And am in the process of getting a grasp on my finances..something I view as important as income is managing your finances.
I still haven't figured out if I have already paid the money the collector seeks but I am getting in a better position to discuss it.
Microsoft Uses a Competitive Product - ColdFusion MX
Microsoft is using MacroMedia's ColdFusion MX instead of .Net or asp on the LiveMeeting site. More information on the site of The Man himself, Ben Forta.
Constantly Screwed
Cingular owes me $200 from rebates and sent a letter on May 18 explaining that "something" was wrong with my receipt. I call the call center and get put on hold only to get a person that regurgitates the words that are in the letter "just highlight your receipt and send it back." I can't find the receipt because I had to use it for a repair! I have photocopies of everything else. Cingular will reprint the receipt but you start to question how much hassle is this savings worth. How many years am I taking off my life in stress over $200?! Well right now I could really use that $200!!
The great desk cleaning
Ah.....
Amy loudly "Rain rain rain rain!"
Good Cleaning
Anyhow, in cleaning I found my CD of MS Security patches! Working on people's computers just got easier!
The Cat says I stink
Of Grasshoppers
Teacher: Are you sure you aren't helping yourself?
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This Morning
I woke in a terrible panic but did manage to pull myself from bed 20 minutes earlier than usual.
Yesterday was all about other people's problems. Even when I sat down at the computer and committed myself to 2 hours on a very specific task I failed to start the task and helped someone else instead. Mind you, it was rewarding in that I was problem solving and succeeding but nothing I did yesterday contributed to preserving the well being of my family.
This morning I could feel the stress building horribly so I woke the wife early. I don't like doing that but I was going to crack. It is raining and I can't get the dog to pee outside. I watch her and when she squats I run her outside but the kids don't help. They are kids so they are oblivious to what goes on around them.
Monday, July 26, 2004
Ram Tough?
It's hard to read this without thinking "Dodge trucks are for pussi..."
Many of you are familiar with the "Tough Guy" image that truck companies try to create in their television commericals - with all the off-roading and drag-racing up hills with boats in tow (because there's all that water at the top of hills)... Incidentally, most of what you see voids the warranty that comes with such vehicles... Anyway, I ask you how 'macho' a Dodge Ram can be when their emblem is basically the female reproductive system with nostrils:
I linked the Dodge emblem (on the right) to their site in case you want to buy a truck.
Bad Dad
Of Grasshoppers
Master: The cleansing of the air, the cleansing of the mind, the cleansing of the soul, and the renewal of life...and the cause of much corrosion in New Jersey.
Peace
One of the first things I am going to do when I have regular income is build a screened in porch.
Iraq Knews
What we know, what we knew, and what is not news....
Iraq Interior Ministry Says Report on Nukes 'Stupid'
CIA insider whispers "that's not where those are supposed to be planted, 'stupid'."
Geek Mode
Plasma Mug
A gift from my brother-in-law (4mb d/l) I couldn't figure out how to compress the video any better. Looks even cooler with coke in it! ThinkGeek.com
From the mouths of babes
Other People's Projects
I am finally home light headed from hunger.
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Of Grasshoppers
Master: As little as possible and as much as feasible in the time allotted.
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This Morning
I ignored the dog all night despite multiple opportunities to walk her. I think she had one large pee episode but I found no poop. Either she is eatting more thoroughly or I missed it or by some miracle she went the whole night without making a mess. I took her outside and read a chapter in a Scott Card book and she laid by my feet. The minute we got in she pee'd twice and pooped twice. I am so glad we don't have carpet. I would be absolute neurotic (painted a target on myself there now didn't I?!).
The animals woke me at 3, 4 and 6 then the alarm woke me at 6:55. The cat had become trapped in the shower stall (yes, the one we have had in our bedroom for 2.5 years). I could not convince myself to get up.
I need stretching. My right shoulder blade is killing me. I need exercise.
Latest expense: Tommy broke a weld on his bed probably by repeatedly dropping his 200+ pounds (90.7 kg) on it.
I want sales but I don't know how to close them. I want more work but I don't know when I'll have time to do it. I want a job but I can't seem to get one.
A 45 year old man jumped off one of our bridges to his death this weekend because he could not find a job.
Sunday, July 25, 2004
Tick Tock Tick Tock Tick Tock Tick Tock
Choices: leaky faucets in upstair bath (never ignore water!!), heating elements in hot water heater, office cleaning, spray 6 week bug away application in yard, trash out of house, buy stamps, buy bug spray (for Sarah), hit an ATM (consider using our own account), program, clean, clean, clean (office, upstairs, desk - respectively), in-laws security light, bath, job applications, client management, contact management, financial management, meditation, self-improvement, exercise - more..
What a cool thought! Of course paper money will die soon but in the meantime what if ATMs were really on demand money. Instead of storing money inside it just printed new bills when needed and the bank would be responsible for destroying the equivalent number of bills. I know I know. Formula for disaster but still a cool thought similar to the BookMachine (thanks Kurzweil!).
Of Grasshoppers
Teacher: You think too much.
Fruit of the Looms for Melons
Saturday, July 24, 2004
And there was plumbing...
I am a strong believer that the right tools make a job go well.
Now for the fun! Have you ever considered sticking a propane torch into your ceiling?
Note the burn marks on the ceiling:
We had no leaks! (At least not yet) and we have made our first ice cubes! This picture shows the freezer connected to the water supply.
I shall finish the game! Of course there is drywall and painting left to do before I can completely write the project off but this completion was a major milestone!
Help My Wife
Gentle Reminders
Plumbing on!
Of Grasshoppers
Teacher: Quiet.
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This Morning
At midnight Cathy called to say Noah had a horrible nose bleed and needed to be taken to the ER but they got it under control. At 8:15 the call came again and he is off to Children's Hospital. Poor guy doesn't deserve it.
I have tasked myself with plumbing today. Unfortunately, to get my tools that may require a digression into cleaning the garage some. That act is so overwhelming and depressing to me that I find it debilitating. Tools that I took such loving care of have rust and are out of other. Items that I would have never allowed to be left to be weathered are unprotected in the driveway. The buildout in the garage is incomplete. The garage represents all my failings with chaos (lack of control), unfinished tasks (irresponsibility), negligence (lack of caring), pack ratting (the inability to let go), and unstarted projects (fear).
Last Night
Sent Amy to the grandparents. Sent Cathy, Sarah, and Noah to the zoo. So Tommy and I went with a good friend of mine to see "I, Robot" (trailer) Fantastic movie! You completely forget that you are watching special effects. Well done! I needed the stress break greatly. It was also the first movie I've been too in a long time where I didn't have to escort someone to the bathroom :) Tommy was on exceptional behavior with only one loud outburst during the movie, "What did he say?"
I would say I slept alone last night if it weren't for the cat and dog that joined me on the bed. Surprising and somewhat disappointing, Lucy, our older dog didn't come downstairs until morning when she needed to be let out.
Friday, July 23, 2004
So Frustrating!
But I have a) managed two client relationships b) insured that we will have electricity until Aug 15 c) helped Noah grow socially d) ripped the 11 and 14 year olds new ones unjustly and felt horrible e) did some banking
I guess I've had a day. Much more to come.
Virus Knowledge
My profession is website design and computer maintenance and I see your issue frequently. One service I provide is virus and adware removal so I think I can lend you some information as well as some good links.
What:
Instead of getting technical about the differences between viruses, trojans, worms, adware, spyware, spam, 419ers, social engineering etc let's suffice it to say that some bad people have created programs that can use your computer in malicious ways. These programs may (but don't always) delete things from your harddrive. These programs may simply watch your websurfing habits and do nothing more than report statistics back to a company that sells statistics (nothings about a single person). These programs may use keywords on your screen to deliver an advertisement to you. Some use your machine as a mailserver to send spam and viruses.
Why:
So why are people you know sending you email with nothing in it or email that has viruses? Doesn't that mean they have a virus? Not necessarily. Your email address is in my address book because at some point I received an email from you. So if my machine has the virus that uses my machine as a mailserver, it will look in my address book and send email to all the people I know but it will randomly choose one of the names and make it appear that they sent the virus. So there is no way to really know where the virus came from (unless you get real technical).
How:
How do we fix this? A whole industry has been created to try to eliminate the above problems. For your part you should use smart computing practices. Computers and the Internet are nothing more than a reflection of the real world. If you were in the parking lot of the grocery and some stranger said "here, eat this" you would run away and report the incident to management or the police. So why do we open email attachments that say "look at this!"? Curiosity. Human nature. Accidental clicks. Many more. The best way to protect is to have a decent antivirus program on your machine and make sure that you have it regularly (nightly if possible) update its virus definitions. A good antivirus program will check your emails coming in and going out.
Spyware is unavoidable. It gets on our machines through sneaky tactics and even the most wary computer user accidentally installs some at one point. Running a scan of your computer once a week to remove spyware/adware is good preventative maintenance. Just like our cars need the fluids checked, our computers need their scans.
Firewalls. A firewall protects you buy allowing data to move from your computer to the Internet and from the Internet to your computer only if you've authorized it. Any suspicious activity is halted by the firewall. You received a message asking "do you want to continue?"
Passive vs Active. Some programs actively scan your computer. They run all the time and often update themselves automatically when you connect to the Internet. In today's computing world you must have an active antivirus program. Passive is a program that you run. Scanning for adware and spyware can be passive programs that you run once a week or whenever you notice a slowdown or peculiar behavior on the computer. Active typically has a cost where passive is often free.
Where:
Antivirus programs:
-Symantec (Norton) Antivirus ($49.95) Right now they have a special.. buy antivirus and get a cd of Atari games
Symantec has a variety of great products but with an old reputation of "slowing down your computer." I personally run Norton System Works and have no problems. I think Symantec is simply stigmatized from having been around so long and when harddrives were small and memory was a commodity anything "unnecessary" slowed your computer down.
Symantec runs the Symantec Antivirus Research Center (SARC) and provides passive scans onine SARC is a great place to research and identify hoaxes before sending out a bogus warning to your friends and family (effective the warning becomes the virus).
-Avast ($free for home use)
-TrendMicro PC-Cillin ($49.95) I periodically use TrendMicro's online scanner (passive) to double check and make sure my active antivirus is still doing its job.
-NOD32 ($60 Australian Dollars) I know nothing about this one other than I have a friend that uses it
-McAfee ($49.99) The Package. They also have a free online scan
Spyware/Adware Detection:
-Spyboy Search & Destory ($free) This is a MUST have program. Run it once a week. Make sure you have the latest updates.
-Ad-aware ($free passive; $39 active the plus version) Spybot catches things Ad-aware misses and vice-versa. They do a little double duty but better to overlap than miss something. I personally run Ad-aware Plus and it warns me whenever something is trying to change my registry so that if I wasn't installing something on the computer I can block the change. I recommend running this at the same time you run SpyBot
Firewalls:
-Most of the antivirus company's above offer firewall software also. I use a piece of hardware for firewalling so I cannot comment on software firewalls other than to say I've heard Blackice and ZoneAlarm are effective.
-BlackIce ($39.95)
-ZoneAlarm ($39.95 for pro) This page shows the pro version at $39.95 but shows a combined firewall/antivirus for $19.95 That pricing doesn't make sense. Buyer beware! Read the reviews and figure out what the difference is.
On the Internet, just like in the real world, you can find bargins but you typically get what you pay for.
I hope this helped! Feel free to call me or email if you have questions. My contact information is available at http://www.sidesigns.com.
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This Morning
6am! I woke. I was wide awake! I had the energy to get up! But lacked the mental discipline. I had a panic attack and hid under the covers only to arise again at 7:30 and beat myself silly for the lost productivity.
Took time to walk the dog and play with Amy. I was happy that Cathy came upstairs earlier than usual but not happy about the circumstances. I had stepped from the room and the dog barked, Amy cried, Noah was unawares and I raced up to have Amy sticking her finger into her eye saying "eye hurt eye hurt." No scratches on the face and evertyhing seems fine. I don't know what happened.
Today is going to be hairy. Thankfully one of my clients has lifted a bit of weight from my shoulders. I must used today for some administrative stuff (regarding bills) and hopefully for marketing. Friday's are bad days for marketing.
Thursday, July 22, 2004
Reason to Be
Don't ask me
Ask my wife.
From the mouths of babes
Of Grasshoppers
Master: Why do you walk the wrong direction?
Of Grasshoppers
Master: No one has time; you make time.
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This Morning
Exciting morning so far. I woke at 4am (my goal) but my wife complained that I cannot do that anymore. I am getting closer to training myself to get up but I haven't quite made it yet. Without sleeping in a different room I am not sure how to pull this off if I cannot set the alarm.
Woke at 6:30 and got out of bed closer to 7am to find the dog had urinated but not defacated so I raced her outside and I believe we are succeeding in teaching her where she needs to go.
I turned my attention to waking the household by bathing both dogs. Yelp!
Then I raced off to a Business Network International marketing meeting. Good group of people.
Returned home in time to help send Cathy, Sarah and the dog to Tommy's school. Gave Noah some quality time on Battleship which is helping Amy be less jealous. She played nicely near us without trying to disrupt the game.
She has asked for a nap but now begs to get out of the crib.
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Non-productive Productivity
Of Grasshoppers
Professor: No, but I am not the person that needs to like you am I?
Finish the Game
Of Grasshoppers
Master: As much as he can handle, of course!
Out of the mainstream hate fests
The Daily Show sums up the democratic ticket Well worth the watch! You may want to warn your coworkers that loud chortling will emanate from your desk momentarily.
Of Grasshoppers
Master: Everyday you make a difference.
Now your plants sing to you
Of Grasshoppers
Teacher: Maybe it is time to build a new dam.
Of Grasshoppers
Master: Is it the obligation or the desire that is misplaced?
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This Morning
The basement flooded again...except this flooding came from an overexcited puppy. Thank goodness I haven't put down carpet yet!
I feel somewhat crazed today..like my temples are going to pop. My head throbs with stress.
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
Of Grasshoppers
Teacher: Time is mismanaged.
Of Grasshoppers
Master: What do you choose to be today?
Do as I say!
This makes me want to explode but I've been working very hard at not showing anger so instead I feel like breaking down in tears.
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This Morning
I started my day at 4am by going back to sleep until 5am and eventually getting up at 7am. I swear that if I could force myself to do some serious exercise that I would quit sleeping so much.
Can't find my shaving razor. Today is all about meetings and coding.
Monday, July 19, 2004
Of Grasshoppers
Professor: So fortunate! Imagine the horror of having too little.
Eight But Not For Long
No drugs in this body but perpetually glazed over eyes
You are not talking about Yu-gi-oh, Playstation or Teen Titans
So your words are foreign and frightening
How dare you imply that I might do something outside!
I am innocent and working hard to change
I have grown up nice but some things must be re-arranged
How can I truly understand by which values I will stand
If I have not experienced them firsthand?
My brother and father have taught me to curse
Perhaps that's the sin I will try on first
Already I am willing to stand my ground
I won't do what the kids and my brother say
Even if they push me around
Time to have things my own way
You don't have to call me by my name
From here on out just call me Burger King!
I am sweet and nice and try to do everything right
Still people get mad at me and sometimes they scream
It blackens my heart and tears my soul apart
Why don't they say "thank you" and teach me right?
I know, although I've been told I still mess up
Give me a second chance, a third, a twentith! I can learn!
I live to please you. I am too young to understand
That whether your are eight or thirty-five
We are all fallible because regardless of age
We are simply man.
Of Grasshoppers
Teacher: You need a lobotomy!
Of Grasshoppers
Master: Destiny birthed.
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This Morning
Noah did his morning man routine and was up before anyone else watching cartoons.
I could not get out of bed quick enough to help the dog make it outside.
I hate not waking up early enough but man doesn't body wish it could stay in bed longer.
Sunday, July 18, 2004
Of Grasshoppers
Professor: And how long did you think about that?
Goodbye Google - We will miss your logos
I took this from Kurzweil which looks like a direct quote from The Guardian but it was so exciting I had to quote it directly.
The Guardian, July 15, 2004
Blinkx is a new search engine that's taking on Google. Launched today, it has been recording 6 million hits a day solely from word of mouth.
Blinkx doesn't only search the web but simultaneously scours news sites, blogs, emails, attachments and your own hard disk. It does all this unobtrusively in the background until you pass your cursor over icons at the top or bottom of the page, when it reveals a digest of related sites as well as material from Word, Excel or PDF files. If you are working in a word processing document, it provides the same service.
And unlike Google, it uses artificial intelligence to rate stories, not page rankings.
Anti-Bush
Republican dominate Knoxville, TN gets an anti-Bush mention in this article Couple in anti-Bush T-shirts were arrested at president’s speech
Of Grasshoppers
Master: Why do you not listen?
Gargoyle Cat
The cat's whole body just rose 2 inches and returned to the monitor as if it were in a Warner Brothers cartoon when the dryer buzzer went off. Then she slowly turned to me, squaked a complaint and returned to sleep.
Of Grasshoppers
Teacher: The sky is red.
Of Grasshoppers
Master: Come with me. I will tell you what to do.
Saturday, July 17, 2004
Of Grasshoppers
Professor: So what are your plans for tomorrow?
The Struggles of Pre-teendom (Part I)
I wish my breast were alive
I think I deserve to be seventeen
Give me independence
Don't be so mean
When I am there
I can declare I am free to be me
When I am there
He is not here
And I can worry only about me
My parents are dorks
One brother is a jerk
The other a pain
My sister is adorable
But only when we are playing
I hear them say I am smart
Which means I am special
So I mouth off alot
It is what adults do
And I have to be as responsible as you
Of Grasshoppers
Master: Isn't something never begun wrong already? How is the next great adventure to begin if the prior is not placed behind us?
All Perspective
Today the toilet overflowed potentially damaging our cabinetry and tainting the insulation and other wall innards that were pieced together with such care, perfection and attention to detail. It overflowed because I was overconfident and careless.
East
Today we were given inspiration to finish some things that we were waiting to "get around to it". Today started out great and has been given reason to be even better. Today we are reminded to take things in stride.
North
Today no one was hurt. With minimal effort a mess was cleaned. All damage easily repaired.
South
Today tools were out of place. Parts were missing. Today I felt lost, incapable, lazy and not living up to my full potential. Today I scared my child and insulted my wife.
Of Grasshoppers
Teacher: Why does it matter?
Inescapable
In perpetuity the circle spins
Hands grasping at grains
Unstoppable
Tears removing happiness
Innocence bellows away
Desire seeks the path of least resistance
Following downward deeper into despair
Futilely Man tells Nature The Order
Scornfully Nature disciplines Man
The Law is unforgiving
Inaction is individualist
Unallowable
Hurtful to others
Ambivalence is a choice
There is no easy way out
Of a hole that only grows deeper
When the dirt you throw out
Never reaches the top
And all you want to do
Is stop stop stop
Trauma to begin
Trauma to grow
Trauma to end
A butterfly in Kansas
A tsunami in Japan
A farmboy with a magnifying glass
A sudden calm in the storm
A tired child rests
The hay flares up
And Choas reigns
Friday, July 16, 2004
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This Morning
Only got up to clean dog poo twice last night and only neglected to procrastinate on it because of the rancid smell. I must find time to learn how to train the dog..of course, having a backdoor that opened would help and having a thick lawn of soft grass instead of hard dirt and sticks would make a huge difference. All in good time.
Blast! I forgot my errand I was going to run on the way home. Time time time....no time.. It's a Monday task now.
So I was hungry this morning and cooked 5 eggs to share with Amy, Cathy and Tommy. Ran out of time and had to take Noah to Zoo Camp so I figured with the past few times the eggs were prepared, there were always some left over and I'd have a few when I got home. I know Amy had some. I had a nibble. And Cathy had a bite. Tommy ate nearly all of the 5 scrambled eggs and one slice of toast. Cathy wanted to hide this fact from me because she was afraid of my reaction. I am confused. I reacted with surprise not anger and surprise that Tommy would be so thoughtless as to horde the eggs from his mother; I really didn't care that I did not get any and cared more that Tommy is gorging himself more and more. I reacted with action not violence. I required Tommy to get dressed and work off a few calories. Of course, he responded with "I don't like exercise and I won't." So he now sits on the front porch grousing. Cathy is tense around me and I am befuddled. I suppose I am to cater to Tommy's every whim just to keep happy. During times like this I feel like the happiest families are the ones where the man goes to work (out of the house 40+ hours a week) and just accepts whatever happens at the house and does only what the wife tells him "I[wife] need you to discipline the child and this is what is to be done." "yes dear."
Thursday, July 15, 2004
Good Nap
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This Morning
Drove through the night to get home. Nearly drove into the concrete barrier once and decided to sleep in a parking lot for a little bit before continuing. Took another cat nap a short time later and finally got home at 5:15am to find the dog found new places to defile, and the children had crawled in the bed with Mom leaving nothing but floor for me to sleep on (I finagled some room at the foot of the bed with the dog). After a brief rest I took Noah to Zoo Camp to discover that I was wrong about the phone bill...I had not paid it. In hind sight I should have called and asked them yesterday but we got cut off again. I tried reestablishing the service but was cut off twice, one operator hung up on me because the Jeep was too noisy and when I got home the dog pulled the phone from my hand disconnecting my call a fourth time. I gave up.
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
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Mobile Email from a Cingular Wireless Customer http://www.cingular.com
Progress
Now I must make sure the house doesn't loose utilities while I am gone.
Tech Alert - Web Developers Beware
Fine-Tune Your Web Site for Windows XP Service Pack 2
The following questions/topics are addressed:
- Does Your Web Site Use Microsoft ActiveX Controls?
- Is the ActiveX control distributed in a cabinet (CAB) file?
- Does your Web site have different behavior based on whether an ActiveX control was installed (for example, automatic redirect or special behavior on refresh)?
- Does your Web site have images of the Authenticode dialog?
- Does the ActiveX Install dialog prevent the control from being installed?
- ActiveX Best Practices
- Does Your Web Site Allow Users to Download Files?
- Does your Web site launch automatic download prompts?
- Does your Web site contain files with file extensions that do not match their Content-Type?
- Does your Web site have images of the download dialog on your site, or images/text showing where to click to accept the control?
- Does your Web site have downloads that should be digitally signed?
- Does Your Web Site Use Pop-up Windows?
- What does Internet Explorer consider a pop-up window?
- How can I tell if Internet Explorer has blocked my pop-up window?
- Does your site redirect or close a page based on a blocked pop-up?
- Does your site launch a pop-up from a pop-up?
- Do you launch the setHomePage() dialog automatically?
- Does your Web site open a new window if information is requested asynchronously?
- Does your Web site launch pop-up windows through ActiveX controls, or other objects on the page?
- General Pop-up Recommendations
- Does Your Web Site Depend on the Microsoft Java Virtual Machine (MSJVM)?
- Does your Web site position windows so that the title bar or address bar is above the visible top of the display, or the status bar is below the visible bottom of the display?
- Detecting Internet Explorer in SP2
- Does your site use showModelessDialog() or showModalDialog() calls?
- Does your site re-direct to another Web page when content is blocked?
Orson Scott Card - Ender's Game
Time to review Ender's Game by Orson Scott Card. I've been keeping this one on my desk to review it for some time. I want to pass it onto Noah (8 years old) as I found the same book in the children's section of Books-a-Million except the print was larger. That is a compliment to the book not an insult. This book has influenced the lives of many adults and teens. There is certainly nothing in it to keep from introducing it earlier.
I found the book completely captivating. It is science fiction. Card writes such that you can't help but be sucked into empathising with the main character during his trials and tribulations.
It's been too long to give this a decent review other than to say "buy it! read it!" I'm working the 2nd in the series and hopefully can give a decent review on that one.
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This Morning
The puppy made it through the night without pooping in the house! (at least I haven't found it yet).
Got Tommy up for school and Noah off to Zoo Camp. Returned home with hot doughnuts and a fire inside me to get some resumes off before lunch then spend the afternoon with some marketing and sales and the evening on development.
Took a few minutes to experiment with Blogger's Post Pages (Settings->Archiving->Enable Post Pages). I had not done this yet as I was afraid that anyone with a link to the old style of permalinks would lose their link. Today I confirmed that Blogger used some good planning and the old style links do not break! Everyone should enable Post Pages!
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
Good day overall
Found - Chaos Begins
FREAKOUT!
The Pied Piper of Six Flags
Irony and Anger
Ironically, the temper revolved around a neighbor's borrowed DVD "Anger Management." I even broke the case in a show of anger. I feel like to total schmuck. This was a Murph moment.
I think I made ammends and saw the err of my way.
Zipcode Coded
Ben Fry's zipcode viewer Ok. This is awesome! Type a digit to highlight a zipcode area. See all the areas by typing 0-9 (one number at a time). Now type your zipcode and watch the region shrink while you type. Next, type Z to turn on soom then retype your zipcode. Pretty nifty! Good work Ben Fry!
My Uncle was in good spirits
Did you know that if it looks like you owe money and you don't file a return that the IRS will prepare a return for you (with zero deductions) and send you a bill? That is what I'm working on avoiding with this past year.
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This Morning
The morning went well. I've learned how to park downtown so I had fewer hassles (although I was 1 penny short of the $1.50 parking fee). I was able to fix my client's woes rapidly.
Monday, July 12, 2004
Amy's nightmares
Motorcades
We missed getting stopped by a road block by 30 seconds. Whether it was for the presidential motorcade or the assine 100 days of road blocks to raise money for the police department I'm not sure. I still think those should be illegal. By what right do they have to stop me if I'm not breaking any laws? Seems completely unjust! Of course, we are breaking a law by not having Noah in a proper child restraint device and that will cost us $300-500 but that's another story.
The music starts again
Some good looking ads in Sunday's paper. Must answer them.
My day in a nutshell:
1) meeting
2) pt sql fax
3) tommy meeting
4) lunch
5) another app
6) noah
7) irs or swingi
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This Morning
Only cleaned up puppy poo once last night...then 3 times this morning.
Off to a meeting!
Sunday, July 11, 2004
Afternoon/Evening
The grandfather took the boys and I to the gun show today. Saw some really cool stuff dating back to the mid 1800s. The WWII generation stuff made me think of my own grandfathers one picking bodies out of the water at Normandy and the other working with chemical weapons in Kentucky. There should be many stories there. I would have liked to been the Keeper of Tales for the family but was not gifted with the ambition nor the memory.
Afterwards we spent some time at the pool then returned home for fairly typical evening chaos.
Overall happy family today.
Whoosh!
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This Morning
Woke 3 time last night to clean up Puppy Poo (say that with a Scrappy Doo voice). Almost got myself to stay up at 3am and work. Instead slept in until 10am (what a bum!) but how refreshing! I so needed that!
Brewed my last half pot of coffee and am now heading up for the final cup. Yikes! I could use a full pot today.
Yesterday Afternoon/Evening
Laundry got interupted for evening plans but it was well worth it. The grandparents took the kids, wife and I to see Spiderman II! It was exceptional!! I give it a high recommend.
Saturday, July 10, 2004
Tommy just asked Amy to "be a frog" and she obliged him by getting on all fours with butt up in the air and hopped around the floor. It was definitely a video moment. He is good to her and she enjoys him!
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This Morning
I've never DNS so slow to propagate as what CFXHosting did this round. DomesticPsychology.com back up..it's email still down. CFNinja.com remains down...it's email still down.
This morning I wanted to be left alone to hide under the sheets while everyone else started their day. Just 30 minutes however circumstances would not allow that and for that I am happy. Cleaned a very messy dog situation. Amy wandered down the stairs on her own to say "Gmorning!" I could hear someone slowly coming down the stairs and thought it was Noah trying to be sneaky. Apparently Noah and Sarah were caught up in their television and morning doings each failing to realize the gate to the stairs was open and neither recognizing that Amy was missing. Very humorous.
Friday, July 09, 2004
Banner is back
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Ohh OHH OOOH Dog lovers
Quiz: Dog Toy or Marital Aid I'd rate this as safe for work.
On the warm-up round I proudly scored 13 out of 14.
On the difficult round I nailed 11 out of 14.
I did not play the user submissions.
Must Take a Load to the Dump
TechniHell
So I have delayed taking my friend up on getting my domains moved to her servers. She is going think me ungrateful. CFXHosting received payment but recorded it incorrectly so DomesticPsychology goes down. It's fixed now but will require 4-6 hours to propagate the DNS. Of course, they have to give their standard answer of "sometime within the next 24 hours." This wasn't my problem!
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This Morning
I awoke with my mind slipping away.
This day is going to be rough.
Half Naked Thursday
I am victorious! (said with Russian accent of course)
Thursday, July 08, 2004
Gooble Gooble
Mental Retreat
Vasectomies no longer necessary; sterility available with a phone call
Mobile Phones May Damage Sperm? Where your phone on your hit to prevent brain cancer! Unfortunately this is not a technique you will be able to share with your kids.
I should audio blog this!
"You didn't ask!"
yelling yelling
"QUIT IT!"
various bustling about noises.. parent awaits one child to clock the other
"Mooom! Noah called me an idiot!"
Doggone Cat
Today's Thought
Is convince others
Not to make the same mistakes as you.
-DM May 15, 1990
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This Morning
I feel like my head is going to crack open. It's not a headache. It's more like a pressure cooker that cannot release the steam.
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
Performance Anxiety
Couple had sex on stage during concert (WARNING! Pictures show nudity)
Beast Boys and Dixie Chicks
It Takes Time To Build lyrics
If you don't like the news then press eject
Baby Davis getting older can't take a rain check
It's time to let'em know what we expect
Stop building SUV's strung out on OPEC
Hold up wait up you know we come correct
You wanna change things up, well hey just get set
It's easier to sit back than stick out your neck
It's easier to break things than build it correct
We've got a president we didn't elect
The Kyoto treaty he decided to neglect
And still the US just wants to flex
Keep doin' that wop we gonna break our necks
It takes a second to wreck it
It takes time to build
You gots to chill
Hate filled people wanna keep us in check
Tearin' down each other is what they expect
If you want love well hey that's a bet
We've got to give before we can get
Waiting like a batter who is on deck
When it's time to wreck shop then shop I'll wreck
So let's calibrate and check our specs
We need a little shift on over towards the left
I don't really know but I suspect
I think it's due time that we inspect
How they get their information and their facts are checked
Another press conference someone's talking out their neck
It takes a second to wreck it
It takes time to build
You gots to chill
So step up to the window and place your bets
Is the US gonna keep breaking necks
Maybe it's time that we impeach Tex
And the military muscle that he wants to flex
By the time Bush is done what will be left
Selling votes like E-pills at the discotheque
Environmental destruction and the national dept
But plenty of dollars left in the fat war chest
What the real deal why you can't connect
Why you hating people that you never met
Didn't your mama teach you to show some respect?
Why not open your mind for a sec?
It takes a second to wreck it
It takes time to build
You gots to chill
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This Morning
I had a dog sleep on me all night. It was pretty cool. I received many slobbery kisses. Still doesn't hold a candle to my wife's. I best get to bed on time tonight! I woke well rested but didn't really want to get moving today.
I've made hordes of progress on my friend's computer. Still fighting a virtual memory problem and one hijacker. Will return the box tonight. Could stand another couple of days but that's always the case with any computer repair.
Stress level way down.
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Tuesday, July 06, 2004
In Summary
Fretted a lot.
Worked on recovering friend's pc with hopes of returning it to her tomorrow.
Contacted another recruiter only to have her email bounce.
Did I say I fretted a lot?
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This Morning
Heart attack pending. Doggone I feel like my spring has been way over wound!
The expected deposit has not come through so the monies promised to CFXHosting and ATT cannot be delivered.
My list of todos is growing to a disproportionally ridiculous level and just cannot be done.
I applied at Home Depot and even they did not call me back. Am I diseased?
Marketing Progress
Played D&D with Tommy and crew in the dark for the evening (the storm knocked out the power giving a great atmosphere).
Monday, July 05, 2004
Another quiz
Not terribly inaccurate!